Niiki (にっき)

Sing can Pass or not?

2007-12-08T20:23:00.000+08:00

U know what? my bro reset his singpass password last week and then we received a letter from CL!
wow...feel so close and warm to receive this letter!!

and initially when i saw the envelope, i thot it's for me...maybe CL forgot to give me some bonus last time and now they wanna give me now...haha...
FAT HOPE LAH!!!

So maybe i shd reset my singpass also!! hehehe....kindda miss CL mah...it's my FIRST....

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Audjourd'hui

2007-11-29T15:36:00.000+08:00

TODAY.........
i wore my birthday gifts....
the butterfly hairpin, from 3inn0c and
the SOLVIL from sikkimites....
all these came in JIT!

Love you guys!! *SUPERmuaks*

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十八日十一月 Prelude

2007-11-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

十八日....is a very important day...to me...

because...昔…二十九年前...on this day, 十八日十一月,
someone came out of mama's tummy and arrived in シンがーポルの病院-KK。。
The arrival of a little princess who had brought about a sad and happy moment to the family...

This little girl had caused some sadness to papa as he had wished for a baby boy instead...
Hence, for a while, he hated mama for giving him a baby girl...
However, as the arrival of a little girl had helped him to win a fortune in the lottery, he began to like this little girl little by little...

二十九年後, this little girl had grown up to be a young lady and she met some good people in her life...
でも、彼女は戯れる and she is always playing and playing and having fun.
Actually many people always thinks she is not so serious in her work but deep down, she thinks a lot...とてもとても!!!
sometimes, this playful girl think too much that her friends finds her irritating!

二十九年中で, she is having many ups and downs but she is lucky to always meet people who help her.
She is very thankful to meet these kind people and will always remember their kindness.
Thank you everyone and looking forward to some nice surprises on 十八日十一月.

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IZ's depart

2007-11-09T19:32:00.000+08:00

IZ had left today....
dunno how to describe my feelings...but somehow, i felt that though he did not say it, he cant bear to leave us too...am i too sensitive again?

Suddenly, i felt as if I were leaving...that kind of feeling came back...my heart sank...though i did not cry this time, but i can feel hot tears in my eyes...
and suddenly, i remembered Jay's song - 轨迹 and when liew liew had left me that time in CL...

http://www.jay-chou.net/lyrics_view.php?a_id=6&s_id=1

I really hate partings...

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Sora

2007-10-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

This day marks the birth of SORA (04-Oct-2007 15:30)...yoshi's baby boy.
I am excited and happy for him. Omedeto!

I believe he is going to be a clever and lucky man like yoshi!

I went to see mommy yumiko on that saturday. As baby sora is naughty and wants to come out a little earlier, his mommy had to go thru cesarean and she was still painful when i visited her. How great is a mommy's endurance.

Finally I saw yumiko's mommy. She is a very modern lady who managed to understand my half-past six nihongo!! :| shitsurei...

As for mako-chan, she is always so shy towards me...i hope to be a good friend to her..

during the visit, i made a really funnie joke!! i said sora to be mako's otoko(man)...alamak...it shd be ototo...which means brother...then stoopid yoshi said, ya, ya mako will call her bro, HEY MAN! *arbish*! till now, when i tink of it, it never failed to make me laugh...hahaha...so stoopid rite! and so malu!

papa yoshi...ganbatte ne!!

okonomiyaki

2007-10-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

Hmm...after some time, i finally made up my mind...

I'm going to make okonomiyaki! which is also known as japanese pizza...
ingredients are very simple..this is a very simple dish but to make it oiishi is not so simple lar!

Receipe :
flour
eggs
dashi (optional)
water
cabbage
ham/bacon/shrimps/nato/anything u like (as its name implies)

garnish : katsuo, steak sauce, sweet mayonaisse

1. mix flour, eggs, dashi and water together into a batter mix
2. mix cabbage and ham into the batter
3. set the frying pan and put the cut bacon to cook it till slightly crispy.
4. put the cabbage and ham mix into the frying pan
5. fry until both sides are cooked
6. dish out and put katsuo, steak sauce, and mayonaisse (i used steak sauce as i cannot find them in the supermarket...it is just as good)
7. serve while hot

it is really an easy dish to make...and i tink my first attempt is satisfactory...

i also bot egg pudding powder from daiso supermart and made it.
Too watery in the end, the pudding's taste did not turn out thick enuff...but the milky taste is good!
I shall buy and try it again next time! OIISHI ne!!

GOCHIOSAMA DESHITA! :b~~~

Re: kyou ha ureshii ne!

2007-08-15T10:27:00.001+08:00

Thanks to given that story.
I thought people should ignore that situation in Singapore.
Cos I think the people in Singapore does not care other people's things.
For example, even though many cars are in the long queue, some cars
forcedly try to go in from another lane.
In other way, when one car need to change the lane, some people
absolutely does not give the space for that car.
Based on the fact of that driving manner, I thought they don't care
other people's things.
But not all people is like that according to your story, additionally,
there are not so few such kindly people in Singapore, I think now.
Cos there were already 2 such kindly guys in same carriage.
I agree it made us happy and warm

kyou ha ureshii ne!

2007-08-15T09:43:00.001+08:00

This morning I took the train as usual to work. It was pretty late around 8.53am when the train reached raffles place.
A girl beside me who had been sleeping suddenly realised she reached her stop, jumped up and tried to run out as the train door is going to close!!
Out of her hurry, she accidentally dropped her book on the floor which has a bookmark in it and she managed to ran out, leaving the book on the floor!

OMG! I was in a sleepy mode and suddenly 1 man ran to get that book and wanted to pass to her, but in the end, the bookmark in the book dropped!
He also managed to run out of the train, without the bookmark. Then another man tried to rescue the bookmark and wanted to pass to them.
Now the train door had closed and the poor man who managed to pass the book, is stucked outside and have to wait for another train.
The girl was nowhere in sight anymore.
The man with the bookmark is mumbling something to us but i do not know he is saying cos i was on the earphone. I think he was talking about the girl and the bookmark. In the end, I think he kept the bookmark. Finders' keeper.

What about the rest of us?
We all remained on our position, seated or standing, all stunned with mouth opened!
It just all happened within seconds. Pity I do not have a video camera with me at that time!

Why I am happy after I see this?
I think it's cos today, I saw 2 courageous man who took the initiative to help someone else in need.
Actually, the guy who tried to save the book was in quite a dangerous position cos the train door is closing.
He looked as if he jumped out onto the platform in the nick of time! That's pretty remarkable isn't it?
I do not know why, but somehow, it'd made me happy thinking about it.

However....
the rest of us, including me, our reaction is either cant-be-bothered or too slow to react!
I wonder if it's something very expensive, will more people come to "help"?

Some food for thoughts...

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LNP 2007

2007-05-28T11:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went for bt timah trekking to dairy farm in the morning at 830am. I did not sleep well the night before, but surprisingly, i can wake up so early this sunday! Maybe it was because of the race later.

I signed up this race, Legs and Paddles 2007 race, organised by NUS, with my friend, ys-chan. He is a very good runner but he does not know how to canoe.
Before asking ys, I asked my friend little foot if she will join this race with me, but she did not reply. I only know henry, the veteran is going so thinking he might had jio-ed the other boaters, so i did not ask them myself. I guess, maybe ym-chan is right....my friends did not want to join the event with me, cos of the hot sun..hah...or maybe when i asked around that time, i asked the people who are not interested in such races to join with me, *sigh* so I did not get good response...too late...at bt timah hike, then I found out that some of them are interested after i told them i am going for this race, pity i did not ask them before...so next time, i will remember to ask these people also! So I am very very grateful ys-chan signed up with me! Thanks for making the race possible!! cos I had always wanted to do a race which is such kind of "biathlon", canoe-run instead of the usual cycle-run biathlon...cos i cant cycle! :(

ys-chan was sick and he came with his family. I am very glad yet I am worried for him, cos he looked quite pale. I regretted to ask him to continue the race with me cos I very much wanted to have a race with him as my teammate. And even when he agreed to join me for the race, I am very happy already! cos otherwise I will not go for this race myself or unless some other friends can team with me.

It was a race where the first runner runs for 4.9km, then both team members will canoe around Singapore River and Marina Bay area, and then the 2nd runner runs for 4.5km. I was the 1st runner.

The race was flagged off at 1.30pm! It was tremendously SCOTCHING HOT! I ate my lunch at 100pm and started the run with a lot of air in my stomach...burping all the way and getting headaches! Nevertheless, i finished my 4.9km in 45mins and reach the "transition area" to meet my teammate to go for the canoeing.

We need to canoe for 2 rounds and it was not easy to control the canoe. We keep going either left left left...or right right right...haha...always missing the ball(float) for the turns.
Finally, we managed to get it straight for a few minutes and it was 満足して！During the 2nd round, we started going left and right helplessly again...but i wished i could do this canoeing more leisurely. It's really better to do it leisurely like round island kayaking. ys-chan wanted me to be the engine, but my hands started to become numb from the fatigue. I did not tell him, I did not show him that I was tired, cos he is unwell. I hope I will not affect him.

After the 2 rounds of canoe, it was ys-chan's turn to run. He came back real fast! cos the marshals were not around and he went the wrong way! haha...I thought he really run so fast! But it was good that he "lost" his way cos he was sick! :)

The goody bag was not so fantastic though cos as usual, the t-shirt size is wrong again! I got L in the end:(
though I always specified S/M. Just don't understand why these organizers can't put on their thinking cap properly! Usually, runners are small build and the students told me that only 2 boxes of S and M came, the rest were all L! I thought they'll be smarter but I believe they never learnt! And what's more, it's always Bigger is better than smaller. So I always get L lor. Or to think it more positively, maybe it's the organizers doing it on purpose? So that we can train real hard and get to choose the size we want! So if you want S or M sizes, please run and complete the race faster! haha...just my 2 cents worth of thoughts!

It was a good race after all! Was too tired to go anywhere after that and thank goodness ys-chan sent me home! Otherwise i would be carrying a heavy backpack after the Bt Timah training. It was really a tiring day for me. But I had enjoyed every moment of it :)

Onward to another race in June! The Anlene Orchard Mile for ladies, which is on 10th June! I will train hard for this so that I can get the size S this time! hah

Spiderman 3 Reviewed

2007-05-08T13:55:00.000+08:00

What have i learnt about Spiderman 3?
1) Be a bad guy is ok so long as u do one BIG good thing.
2) Forgiveness is the hardest thing to do, but Spiderman managed to.
3) Life is a choice. You determine how it goes.
4) Although black spiderman is cool, i still like the original red spiderman!
5) Asteroids or UFO are evil and we really do not know where it came from!
6) Becoming evil is easy and it feels good. But when it binds to you, you might not be able to get it off.
7) Prevent misunderstandings..cos it's the root of all communication breakdown and more bad things will happen if u do not clear it.
8) It's so romantic to lie on the web and look at stars. But only spiderman can do it. :(

Critics :
- a little too draggy
- simple story
- action is good

looking forward to POC III - At World's End!

Japan eXchange pgm

2006-07-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

went to an exchange program organised by my school and it was awesome! my duty for the day is to bring japanese around singapore, they r on biz trip n they were given this free day to experience life in singapore. Hence, i was alone in my group, with 5 other japanese, namely, Abe-san, yamada-san, hirose-san, kawachi-san and takeshi-san...they were very kind to me...i had learnt some things from them in this program too!
i brot them to chinatown, tian fu gong temple, little india, sls. they were given a list of places they can go to, so we started at 9am and i'm supposed to bring them back by 3pm.
yamada-san was most close to me, she can speak a bit of english. for the other guys, they cant really speak english. and my half-bucket japanese managed to say what i need to say, though, my tour is not as explanatory, but they were v imaginative as i told them the ma-zu story and made them try new drinks like grass jelly and soya bean drink from hawket center! they liked grass jelly better..haha...then abe-san asked me an interesting question which never occurred to me in my life! why are some escalators slower and some faster? i gave my answer at the end..and he was happy though he did not have the answer himself..haha...some observations they told me were, in japan, humans has more priority than cars! their pavements for people to walk are much bigger n when crossing the road, people are biggest! then ito price, wherever i bring them, they all say cheap! i tink japan is really an expensive place! then started to rain after we reached maxwell market on our way to chinatown, so we ran to the chinatown market area. there they stopped by the medical hall n see all the shan zhen hai wei with awe! after that they saw some stones goldfish and they were all interested to buy for their frens...1 is $5..din managed to bargain for them...then i feel so bad, cos the shopkeeper apek dun want to give, then tink they saw i din managed so they came n say, nvm, it's ok, each bot like 2 to 8 of the goldfish leh! in the end the shopkeeper gave me one of the goldfish as a token tat i brot them there...i dun like it...i told the apek i dun want, he insist and said it's for good luck...so in the end i kept it...but i felt terriber after tat cos i feel that i got that goldfish at the expense of these new found frens!!! :(((( super terok feeling lah!
then we moved on to chinatown...where i bot lim chee guan's bak kwa for them to try! they liked it n tried several ones...tink they felt bad i gave them a treat n they want to treat me to dinner!! omg...i'm defeated! i dunno what to say abt these pple!
ard 12pm already, as there was not much time, we decided to go to little india...it wasnt a good idea as it was my first time there myself! gosh, but i just anyhow walk..sorry to make them walk so much! then told them abt the flowers that the indians like to wear, n brot them to see an indian temple...in the end, we ate at jln besar hawker which i MISTAKENLY thot it's army market n confidently said we'll go upstairs to find miltary goods! to my dismay, there wasnt any upstairs...so i apologized n said it's far away, so in the end, we din go...i thot it will be good as hirose-san looked more interested in military stuff...i tink he looked pretty bored leh! :|
nevertheless, i tink he enjoyed it...and i dunno whether they r really ok with sharing food, cos i keep asking n they said okok...so i bot carrot cake, chicken rice n popiah for them...they only liked popiah...n they liked the sugar cane drinks!
there i saw SLS! my saviour! finally a place which i'm familiar...so i told them i'll bring them to our electronic place, just to have a look n it's singapore version of akihabara! hah...they went in n take a look at a few cameras n no time liao...so we walk back to conrad...wow, so far away rite? i made them walk n walk...yamada-san told me in japan, she rarely walk, usually will drive...so i feel so bad to make her walk!
after tat, they wanted me to stay for dinner after their meeting...and in the end, i was invited to their meeting as well...it's a fa-biao-hui where they r supposed to do a presentation/talk abt their experience today n finally the supporter(which is me) is also supposed to talk...omg! i dunno wat to say! so nervous forget to greet ev1, just anyhow say a few words in jap...like good experience, genchi genbutsu(go to the source), luckily my coy taught me this useful word...n i said it's v enjoyable...abe-san was the most encouraging! he said u made a v v good speech as it was really what u said..go to source n experience!
the other teams presented...and i tink ev1 is nervous n we all had fun...oh ya, there are a few groups with shuai-ge n mei-nyu! i can only bio from afar lor...takeshi-san, 58y.o. is a pretty dom kindda ojisan lor...when he talk to me, he talk so fast jap, n all i dun understand...then he come v close to me when he talk one..then keep asking me to hold hand with the other guy...OMG! hirose-san, 41y.o, is a v quiet guy..i din really get a chance to talk much with him though...he alwiz smile if i look at him...kawachi-san..same age as me...is v small n cute...pity he has a cute gf liao! yamada-san is like a big sister...dunno her age...cos secret...abe-san 40y.o v nice guy and v considerate..i like them all v much...all married leh!~
then after the mtg, they asked me where got nice food, i thot clarke quay maybe since they want to drink beer...but raining so hard, then i seldom go clarke quay one...bring them walk to marina, wait for cab to go cq, then in the end, i changed my mind, bring them to esplanade! made them walk so much! but it was worth it! cos i brot them to al dente at esplanade! the atmosphere was great! n can see singapore river..pity still raining! otherwise can see stars cos they'll open up the roof top! WILL BE SO ROMANTIC !!! they like the place v much too! we order mussels, 2 pizzas n 2 pasta..abe-san really can drink...they order carlsbergx2jugs, 1 normal white wine, 1 premium white wine! cos will have 1 free pasta...total abt $400!!! woah, i never had such an expensive meal in my life b4! i got a glass of carlsberg, my first time, it's quite nice leh! but after a while, it got more bitter then no so nice le...
after the meal, we took foto at the esplanade bay n make our way back to conrad...as we walked towards suntec, they started pooling money tog n want to give me! i feel so sad...maybe they tink i dun want to go home yet cos i am waiting for some tips or anything? :( so sad!
then i ran a few steps when takeshi-san insist i take...but i tink abe-san saw me n asked takeshi-san to take back the money! i felt relieved! in the end, we parted at starbucks at suntec cos yamada-san knows the way back n it's getting late...we exchange contact information and they gave me their name cards...wow, all snr mgr leh! and i'm glad when they say if i go to japan to look for them...they r really nice pple....next day, they'll fly to shanghai n then take a cruise back to japan..so nice rite? to have such a service training!!! odaijini (take care) pals!

LE n CL's wedding

2006-06-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

ya, i was selected as a jie mei again lor...wth! this time, the jm is really a terok experience!!
there's a guy who grabbed me by hugging me when he barged in! aiya, really a very very bad experience! NO SPORTSMANSHIP AT ALL!
then the angpow also so little! haa...shh...
i tink we are pretty disappointed at the way things turn out...but we are happy for the bride n groom lah...
well...it all happened pretty nicely when we managed to dodge away this ke-wu guy DK, and he went for treasure hunting...my usual trick lah...then LE's dad was outside lor...dunno why he was outside!
then he needs to put on the veil for LE leh! so we have to open the door for him! so he came in, put on the veil, then photographer came in cos need to take foto for the bride. then that DK started pushing the fotographer!
we told them that but nobody buys that. then he just barged in like a robber! the sisters all were holding him until they gave way...so i went up and pushed him out then he grabbed me around and then pushed me in instead!
i don't have more strength than him! and the rest of the guys just went in easily! they are already all in and he still grabbed around me and trying to scare me by trying to kiss me! think i scared of this? i just find it disgusting!
after that he did not even say sorry! then deb was making him drink the sweet n sour n bitter juice then he was forcing deb to drink!
said he'll drink aft deb drink but in the end, force down on her...not a man of his word! i was practically v mad at this kind of humilation that i kept quiet throughout!
the rest of the bros saw my black face lor..then after this he tried to barge into the bride's room when the groom was still at the living room waiting for the FIL to put on the veil...somebody came out of the room, then he tried to push open the door, then in the end, the person what the bride's mom leh! i heard that he knocked the mom with the door!
omg! atrocious rite? so mei you jia jiao! after tat he is not so "ONz" liao...i dunno lah, i felt he's like a crazy monkey jumping around the house only!
pity it's someone else's wedding, otherwise i would have kicked his ass! make sure he cry!
he is plain fat n ugly lor! and so chor-lor! wonder how his wife can take it! at least he a bit handsome still not so bad rite?
atrocious attitude and so immature and disrespectful! and worse of all, i felt humilated by him! not that he managed to touched me on the sensitive parts or wat, he did not managed. but i was humilated by this kind of la-la-che-che!
and i was receptionist again lor...this time, me n cyn were attending to the guests n "marking attendance" so he suddenly so hyperactive and jumped out from nowhere and start ushering the guests in, chk their name on another attendance list then just say, u r table what etc, then ask them to go in...cyn also become buay tahan, said, eh, DK, u like tat we will be v luan leh! how we know who came already or not?!
so i diao him again! said, so who r the pple whom u just ushered in? cant rem rite? or u tink u have super good memory is it? u better go n find out which guests u ushered in lor! dun anyhow ask pple to go in lah!
i almost want to say, if u want, then u do receptionist lah! i go n sit down better! hmph! thot the snatch the bride event already over and i can have a happier mood then he do like that! but dun wanna kick up a fuss lor...pple wedding leh! at the end of the wedding, there's the shake hands session lor...then he tries to shake ev1's hand as well...i din want to shake hands with him. still angree...and he tink his wedding ah?!
i told him off...first impression counts lor...dun care whether he cared! said loudly that he is really a lousy guy and he's a COLOUR WOLF!

best experience, is really liew2's wedding whose brothers are most cooperative and creative...i can't understand why most of the guys are so apprehensive about this! can't they just have fun and be man about this? we are not making them strip and parade the street what! I don't want to be jm anymore!

I'm a crazy wedge fan now!

2006-06-15T00:20:00.000+08:00

no salsa class today...and i was wearing a newly bot wedge from far east plaza...
but the strap is pretty tight at my ankle and after work, finally decided to try millenia's bata shop to ask the frenly salesgal to help me punch one more hole!
She obliged without any hesitation and i explained tat the shoe wasn't bot at bata, but she said no problem at all..overwhelmed by her frenly service, while waiting for her to punch holes, i saw another WEDGE! OMG!
and i bot another one again!!! now i have 3 pair of wedges...I SIMPLE FELL IN LOVE WEDGES..i dunno why...
got home, showed my mum and she liked it too...so decided to share this pair with lovey mummy:)
and nowadays whenever i go shopping, i just cant help looking out for WEDGES leh! how how how?
I can't take my eyes off them...

midnight sales

2006-06-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

went sale-ing at suntec after discussing LE & CL's wedding plans...ya, u guessed it, i was jie mei again...my 5th time!
this time round is 2 wks notice and we gotta do the groom-ing plan by today! have a good dinner at Curry Favour along stamford house...it was delicious! next time shall bring my other frens there!
and then the jm's went for midnight shopping...saw pretty clothes at GG<5, but i think it's still quite ex after 20% leh...then Q for trying and Q for paying are so long!
in the end, i bot arena swimming shorts, 1 pair of wedge from novo, then MAC compact powder foundation...

Haircut

2006-06-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

went sg buloh again...first time being a tour guide like tat, talked in front of the bus...i'm amazed tat i got so much attention from the kids! i tink i'll be quite a good story teller next time! haha
this time, din see any snakes or anything leh...but it's a fun day bringing families ard and learning new things...
View photos here : http://holi-abeille.fotopic.net/c987871.html

finally went to cut my hair at the salon...din do anything fanciful tis time, except short...tinking of perm or colour...hmmm...which is better? or more suitable for me leh? :|

X-Men

2006-05-31T00:16:00.000+08:00

Wolferine is such a sentimental guy! killed Jean Grey and cried...
actually i never really watched xmen's movie before...only have vague idea from childhood's cartoon times...nevertheless, this is a good movie, i enjoyed it!

Duan Wu Jie

2006-05-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

The most popular story behind this festival is the story of Qu Yuan. Qu Yuan, born in 340 BC, during the Warring States Period was the deputy prime minister of Chu State. While drafting foreign policy, he saw the danger posed by the ambitious Qin State. At that time, there were seven states fighting among themselves to unify China. Of the seven states, Qin was the strongest and Chu the largest. Qu Yuan proposed government reforms and an alliance with the neighboring Qi state as a way to ensure Chu's safety. But the King of Chu did not agree with his stance and Qu Yuan was finally sent into exile for 20 years.
During those desperate years, Qu Yuan watched his beloved country become weaker and weaker. On the fifth day of the fifth lunar month, he drowned himself in the Milo River, because he despaired for his country's future.
Each year, during the Duanwu Festival, the day of Qu Yuan's death, people race dragon boats to honour his memory. This festival also represents how the people of Chu tried, at the time, to recover Qu Yuan's body from the Milo River. Zongzi, the pyramid-shaped dumplings were thrown in the river to feed the fish, so they would not eat Qu Yuan's body. One other story about the origin of the Duanwu Festival relates to the people's worship of dragons. In ancient China, agriculture was the most important part of daily life. Therefore, water was extremely important for their livelihood. People believed that the dragon was the water god that is used for agricultural cultivation. On the day of Duanwu, people raced dragon boats to entertain the god and treat him with zongzi so that the god would grant them a year of favourable weather.

Ramble the woods

2006-05-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

many things...decided to come for this walk by sac where they bring us from jln kayu to yck..near ncs hub...
saw many things n learnt many stories...very interesting! there's the murder weapon - castor seeds (extract)
beading necklace material - jacob tears, along the canal - sea snail eggs, nutty like sunflower seed - petai tree, pretty birds' nest on the tress - baya weaver (aka huang xiong zhi bu niao), why fruit is called jack, beautiful black caterpillars with orange-yellow "thorns on the back". unforgettable!

Sungei Buloh then late for class

2006-05-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

saw snakes...this is our recce trip for next week's tpcc event...
if u enter b4 830am, there is no entrance fee :)
and it's cooler...i tink i want to visit the place again in sep - mar period so tat can do bird watching :)
but beware of many many mossies who like to drink O+ blood:|
view the photos here : http://holi-abeille.fotopic.net/c987828.html

DVC

2006-05-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

fell asleep in between..guess it's too late for the show? we started watching ard 8pm...i tink i still prefer to read the book..thanks to the fren who lent me the book for abt a year! OOopsss...heh ;)

BEEEEEE!

2006-05-17T01:16:00.000+08:00

gosh...today got a bee leh! crawling from my shoe to my leg when i was on my way to work in the train! i so scared luckily got a magazine with me n i made it walk to the mag...
after tat i threw the mag on the floor:|
there's too many pple n i dunno how to react! i'm trembling all over...so scared it'll fly...so scared abt tat experience...it crawled to the floor n towards the door...
as each of us who noticed the bee moved into the cabin, trying not to step on it, but a pretty huge lady stepped it to death! poor bee...my heart dropped...tinking tat i wld have saved its life if i just use my mag n make way to go out of the mrt n let the bee fly away...sad...

Wouldn't it be nice?

2006-05-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

I really like this song! by the Beach Boys...in the cadbury commercial..
Wouldn't it be nice if all things in life are simple
Then we wouldn't have to think..
Wouldn't it be nice to live happily
Where we wouldnt need to be sad?

wouldnt it be nice if i can have a peaceful mind
then i wont be so sensitive n paranoid
then my frens might feel better with me
we will be able to live in peace!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ OK, actual lyrics ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ End Actual Lyrics ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

happy mother's day

2006-05-14T01:12:00.000+08:00

decided to give mommy a foot spa...hee...i used the pepermint scrub from tbs n gave her a scrub at her feet!
then trying to do like those shops, so i tried with warm water, cloth, etc...
in the end, i gave daddy a foot spa too, so tat he wont be jealous! brot mum to hanabi to eat...wth..the service this time s*cks!
very very bad! the waitress all listless, then they like see us no up like tat! when they put the chilli powder on the desk, it's a thump! nah! kindda attitude!
then the food we ordered in the first round came at the last! really not a very good time i tink...i tink my parents also saw my black face:(

no tennis :(

2006-05-13T01:08:00.000+08:00

feel so fat!
rain n rain, next wk also no tennis leh...i miss tennis...

BBQ at annie's place!

2006-05-12T01:06:00.000+08:00

over frenly dog scared me off man! really scary leh...the dog juz rushed to me like going to jump on me...my adrenalin shot up so high! new frens, no tennis, fun, the exorcist, but over-eat, tabe sugiru!
ev1 seems to become da chang jin-to-be!
fun day!

tpac salt finale meeting

2006-05-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

got an analysis of our "character" n i din bring my paper...from the description they read abt each D.I.S.C personality...there's one when all acclaimed it is very littleFoot!
i thot so too! there's some characteristics which is very someone! for me, they tink i'm more S but i tink i'm more C...well...shall wait to calculate my results first...

rain again!

2006-05-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

why always rain in the evenings nowadays? :( i only managed to play 1 hr tennis this week...sian! alwiz rain at that time!

it's ur turn babe!

2006-05-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

Happie Birthday to you! haha...the person whose birthday falls on the same day as my passport expiry date...
you know who u r ;b
may u be alwiz pretty n happy!

tennis at eden

2006-05-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

hah...i went there to tennis n stayed for dinner at sue's place...then went to dabao kfc...who knows next day, shawn sms-ed me saying he saw me as he was queueing behind me!
i din see him cos we ordered quite a lot of food n then the waiter was quite blur...i asked him y he din call me..he din explain:(
he also din expect to see me there n only when i turned then he saw me...but can still call me mah! duh!

Off to perlapah again!

2006-04-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

was a training camp this time, and we did not finished up to summit. but i was glad though at times, i am confused abt my role and it's raining after a while...i got a bit scared! scared tat i'll

fall to death..scared that my cramp comes back to me...
at the end of the exercise, we have a simulation of search n rescue...then i became the lost party...and had to be the casualty who sprained ankle! touch wood! it became pretty cold and

also we have not much food n drink with us...luckily they all managed to find us and we went back to camp...but it's very very tiring...if they did not find us, we'd have to dawn in the

middle of the forest already! we managed to whistle and shout a-oh-na to each other..tink shouting is still better...earned a leech love bite at my neck on my way back to camp...

Happy birthday to you!

2006-04-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

to my 2 frens...mayyam n liew2..

Free Cone Day @ Ben & Jerry

2006-04-25T01:29:00.000+08:00

YEAH! today will have free ice-cream ;b~~~
hee...at ben&jerry...my colleagues n myself went to eat duing our lunch time! YUM!!!!
All thanks to shawn's email :)

the double chocolate fudge is YUMMILICIOUS! wow, the queue was pretty long but it was pretty efficient that ard 5-10 mins, we got our ice-cream already! if only i managed a second helping!! :b~~~~

Haircut controversy!

2006-04-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

I wanna have a haircut! my hair is in a mess! What should I cut this time? short short or perm or long?

ADEX

2006-04-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

Saw DT there lor! keep persuading me to go manado...but go there need money n leaves leh..i dun have that much:|

it's quite an informative exhibition..just tat if they have good bargains for fins, i would buy...either it's cheap but not nice or nice but not cheap...

well...i simply just cant have the best of both worlds rite! hmph!

manado...ok, u r in! but not now...

Nihongo exams again!

2006-04-22T01:23:00.000+08:00

this time, i passed so borderline again! sigh...

this year, one of my goal is to be able to converse simple japanese fluently...with my boss during reporting! ok, he's pretty willing to teach me...so i'd better not let him down!
let me fly to japan...please...

Burn the Floor

2006-04-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

Pretty costumes, beautiful dance..this is awesome!
the theme is "Would you like to dance with me?"
I wonder what kind of response will I get when i ask this kind of qn in this shy country!
If i ever am going to have a bf, he MUST be able to go dancing with me! hah...at the very least salsa! if can ballroom even better!
SOOoooo....Would you like to dance with me?
as usual after a show, i got the cd...but this one is not so fantastic...in the sense, if u dun watch the show, u might not be able to appreciate the cd better..

Perhentian dive

2006-04-14T01:17:00.000+08:00

papa leh! i alwiz so stressed man!
first time went 24m...gulping the air so much..uncontrollable...no good....no puking..cos rigging of apparatus were done on land by the dive center...and we just need to test the air...
my equalization alwiz beats me to evthg!
i tink i did hold my breath in one of the dive! for prolly 30secs? v dangerous neh! cos i wanna control my breath intake n i forgot to blow out my breath until suddenly my mind told me, eh, did u forget to do sth??
but saw so many big things this time! titan triggerfish, humphead, aka luo han! woah, as big as me leh! then i saw baby baracudas, cute little yellow boxfish, porcupine fish, shark which hid under a stone, napolean wrasse and morays..quite a good trip la :)

check out my fotos at : http://holi-abeille.fotopic.net/c948855.html

Racist

2006-04-12T11:28:00.000+08:00

Somehow I find that indians get up seats for elderly or "disabled"...pregnants, etc...
chinese, YOUNGSTERS somemore...just sit there! so disappointing!
there's an indian gal who actually pointed to a pregnant lady to an indian guy whom i tink they dunno each other...
like OEI, din u see a need to get up? then the guy just got up so willingly and even extend his hand to the pregnant lady to let her sit down...i'm so ashamed of us, chinese!

Happy Birthday to YOU!

2006-04-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

to my beloved man...my lou dao aka ah ba..aka lao ba...i wanna wish you always happy and always wealthy

SUPER SUNDAY!

2006-04-09T17:30:00.000+08:00

Brot daddy to Tao's restaurant (highly recommended by 3inn0c b4...n i also quite like their service:b) to eat cos it's his bday tmr! actuallie to bring my parents around for meals is quite mafan lor...cos my dad prefers chinese style food, must sit in a round table and food in the middle where all chopsticks have to cross. Though he alwiz says he's ok with jap, western food or other kinds of food, it's not so easy to find a restaurant that he LIKES...luckily at TAO, the waiters there are pretty sweet-talkers and they made mum n dad pretty happy...then food wise, those appetizers n salads are not so appealing to them lah...but at the end of the day, they still like the main course! PHEW! tat's a problem with my dad..if he dun like or if my bro likes, he'll not eat and pass the food to my bro lor...then he'll be hungree/not full n choose to buy other food later...i alwiz scold him for wasting money n food like tat...by doing tat, my bro gets FATTER and he also gets FATTER...bro gets FAT cos he was given more than wat he shd eat, dad gets FAT cos he eats later at nite...v v v v super unhealthy lor! my mum also dislike him doing tat! but no matter how many times we told him off, he just dun listen...aiya, i said b4..my mum n dad likes us to be FAT!
FAT = PRETTY! they dun like us to be skinny lor...but i told them, nowadays nobody like fat mah, who dun want to be slim, not to the extent of skinny lah, but not FAT rite? it's not just aesthetic but also health wise mah...v hard to change their mentality...
after tat initially wanted to go home, then we decide to go and have a game of pool! something i did not regret! cos it's really FUN lor! to play with papa...he's so comical...cos he nvr play b4...then the white ball flew out! wahahah...he felt malu n we all laffed at him...but so fun! then the other tables all looking at us, cos v rare at 10+pm u see "old folks" there to play...then i team with my elder younger bro n my youngest bro with my dad...dad got the hang of it and he's in fact quite a good player wor! better than me! HMPH! i tink tat's the happiest moment i have with my family since a long time already...can we be like this forever?

mum tried once, but she decide to let us play instead...we shd play more instead! haha...anyway, 1 hr there is v cheap...$4.30 for 6 feet...we used the 8 feet one, then my bro got safra card...so $5.40 per hour..cheap rite?
have been wanting bring them ktv one day! i hope can materialize this soon...

super siong ah!

2006-04-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

my heart was pumping so hard in the morning! thinking of what's going on in the day!
2-4pm jap class - bugis
5-6pm guitar class - jurong
7-9pm tennis class - dover
11pm - 5am - nike hike - upp thomson to bt timah
cant imagine why i packed myself like tat!
then sunday 2.30pm got guitar makeup class...it's a real siong day...i havent learnt my lesson huh!
but at the nite hike, i guess i'm more relaxed, though feeling sleepy, i think i like the walk in the dark..esp we trepassed the upper pierce reservoir...the night walk along the reservoir is so tranquil and quiet aside from some of our chit chats...but it's really a romantic evening if you are walking with your loved one...
then i brot my petzl headlamp when i din use...trying hard to use my night vision and other pple's lamp to converse energy! haha...then i find tat wearing trek shoe on trails are really v v good...i like my trek shoe! still need a bit more seasoning, only wear it this time, 2nd time, so at those rooty bumpy trail, it's safer to wear trek shoe. The cushion is really good and u wont get sprains that easily. just tat at the end of the trek, my ankle is a aching somehow...tink i did not wear proper socks! oh yea, i need thick socks to prevent blisters! but i tumbled a little and it's ok. but then it's walking on rather flat terrain...so if there's a lot of ups slopes, like panti...i tink i'll get cramps more easily considering the weight of the shoe...will have to re-assess by wearing more often huh! but it was a good hike...we ended off with prata at bt timah!

Ministry of Sound

2006-04-07T11:21:00.000+08:00

Had a meal at marina south steamboat...woah, i tink i dun really like eating those much nowadays...so smoky n the oil keep splurting ard! but my colleagues suggested eating tat lor..
then after tat we went to MOS to have a drink...where i drank sprite...ok, entrance fee before 10pm is $12 for ladies, $15 for men, then after 10pm is $22 for ladies, $25 for men. There are different themes..and the one i went is v techno...i never stepped in a discotheque all my life and this is my very first time...actually dancing is really quite fun, but then it's v noisy...tat my ear drums is pumping when i went to the washroom for a break!
pity we stayed at a theme for too long, had 3 rounds of shaking ur bon bons man! then by the time we go to other themes, it's all so packed and one of the married colleague wanted to go home...so i tagged along with the marrieds to go home...after that then found out tat one of the guy wanna intro his male fren to my female colleague...and they were saying this gal 26 liao leh! still no bf! i kept quiet...hiding under my seat..haha...dare not reveal my age and i do not have bf...later kena dragged to go match-making ah! so scary!

SIAN 1/2 . BOREDOM

2006-04-06T11:20:00.000+08:00

very sian...i got no projects now...my project live liao...then now reading all those documentation thing again...catching up with all documentation cos the vendor couldn't care less now tat we had paid them! damn! i dunno why my PL still go n pay them! i told her i do not want to pay till i got all docs from them...since she pay she go n handle lah! stoopid! really very BORING leh! i wonder if i shd look for job again? or shd stay to get at least one year bonus then go! but it's really v tiring to look for jobs:( cos too zobo is no good...too busy is no good!! sigh...i'm just a grumpy fat pig! hah...

Celebration

2006-04-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

we celebrated one of the boaters bday and our finished adventure race!

my torso hurts...but my thighs hurt a little bit, prolly due to the cramps...deep heat all over and then sleep ard 1230 also...my private part got abrasion *OUCH* and shower time is :( :( time!
haha...today urine then got a tiny weeny blood...like those from a scratch skin, that little lah...i dunno how i got it, prolly got from riding bike ba! back, ribs, upper shoulder part aching too...i'm a masochist!!

HEY i got a lot more tanned! even my PM asked me, eh, u got diving or wat? or u were in sun? cos u looked so tanned today...i dunno if i shd say i went to adventure race, later u know, u tell office pple they'll like WOAH! kind of thing...but i told my vendor...haha...later my vendor asked me then i'll chuan bang! then so paiseh!

i feel so depressing on the bday celebration! cos his grandma passed away and it reminds me of my own plight just a few mths ago..seriously, i really think the gathering is not a really good time...cos
1) this fren is v quiet himself usually already.
2) in the gathering we are talking to ourselves n he din really join in...he's usually a listener i tink...
3) Love Me came at the wrong time? the lyrics sounds devastatingly sad!
4) It's just 2 days after the funeral...but well his bday is 1 day ago...then the stage people are asking him who he celebrated with...got gf, etc...
it's quite sad huh? to feel lonely in ur bday...last year was an unhappy year for me...ok dun drag myself down again..I AM BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY AND WORDS WONT BRING ME DOWN...albeit these unhappiness, there's always happiness and it makes the world more complete with this incompleteness...

ADVEnTURE RACE 2006

2006-04-02T07:20:00.000+08:00

The race started at padang at 930am. I woke up at 530am just to eat a heavy breakfast of maggie mee n some oats. REALLY FULL! too full in fact!
but i was glad i did, cos till 1130pm, i'm still not hungry! Alwiz before the race, I couldn't fall to sleep. tink i only managed to sleep at 2am...when i went to bed at 1am...
overall verdict : Sweat, adrenalin, mentally tiring after the sudoku! butt hurts, cramps! fun..lost my swatch watch n sunnto compass!

itinerary :
0930 : start at padang...initially supp to start at 0900...
run to tanjong pagar's da jia chang ktv's carpark to pick up our bike...blow the long balloon into a sword shape...carry it with us...cycle to sentosa's entrance...get off bike...cross road to the other side to go up mount faber...then must push the bike up slope n into a "jungle like area" then there's another carpark where we let the ushers sight the balloon...
go up to mt faber...there we r supp to do shade the words out, all capital letters...must colour "ADVENTURE SINGAPORE 2006"
after that is sentosa and we were given the sudoku puzzle which we spent abt 1.5 hours on it! taking the chance to rest also lah...haha...mine cracked but still no results!
next, ascending at sentosa main cable car station and up 2 stories and then we went to the 3rd storey to do abseil down...it seems easier with the gloves...after tat, it's the tyrolene traverse!

at the tyrolene traverse...indiana jones across the mountain cliffs? we are 10% of tat only! but i was like shen yang za ji tuan when i do it already! i only hear little foot n wl's voice, cheering me on...almost there, almost there...then cos my position head almost horizontal i keep seeing the sun...at the last quarter, i gave up...then they asked me to catch the rope...n they toss the rope not even reaching me, so they need to toss again, ask me to let go of my hands n catch....obviously tat's a mistake! cos i let go of both my hands! and i was bending really almost into half from my back upside down! luckily last time i can do wan yao very easily! so it's not so bad!

when they lulled me near to the parapet wall where i can sit down, none of the helpers even bothered to lend me a hand, until one guy he finally reached out...i dunno wat's the other gal volunteer doing there...then when tat guy gave me the hand, one of my hand was caught between the other hand and rope, so how to reach out!? they cant see? then they keep saying i give u my hand u also dun want to reach! then if i let go to grab his hand, it's like my position already so awkward, my nao chong xue already leh! i would have slipped back again and they would have to pull me again?

nobody was at the queue n they just wanna have their lunch! darn! it's not like there are a lot of other pple waiting at the other side to do this traverse thing what! it's only my team left!
is like....this gal so weak, cant even catch rope, then like very impatient lor! like faster finish lah, we want to eat our lunch one! cos when i came back on the ground, i dun feel tat they had even a sense of remorse of
1) making my watch drop into the water? yes nuttin they can do, but at least apologize? like drop drop lor, it's ur biz...ya, indeminity form prolly say it's ur own loss of any belonging. but i'm just feeling the human factor is lousy lah! volunteer also volunteer nicely mah!
this part is really the worse part in my race lor!
the watch was from my uncle leh:( i dunno if i can get it anywhere again...esp swatch...cos they have limited skins editions :( all cos of those stoopid impatient guys manning the booth!
i was jogging backwards trying to use my other muscle...prolly cos already fatigue, need to use more strength to jog backwards...dun want to disappoint lao-da...as i'm trying to "RUN" behind, i saw u little foot also struggling...cos she walked after i was caught in the act of walking...but i'd to walk, my cramps were coming in...i din bother to shout for help, to say I CRAMPING SOON! haha...cos i tink my team'll turn back and chk me out...dun bother to waste their energy! haha...then as i managed to catch up, quite near esplanade, i managed to tell lao-da...then he asked me to walk slowly...felt REALLY touched...He din push us to the limits knowing we are not used to such race! he also v kind to let us walk up the slope at mt faber liao...prolly we shd jog backwards up the slope man!
at esplanade, we need to jump into SINGAPORE RIVER! wearing floating device lah...then supposed to find a picture n rem then swim back and then the guan zhu will ask us qn abt the picture...if wrong we need to go back in the water again!
after we come up n on our way back to padang, some volunteer tried to cheer me on... faster faster, u almost there!!
i appreciate her cheer lah, but i cannot fast n it's quite irritating mah...so i a bit harsh leh, i told her off! oops! tink speaking up is a good way...haha...at least tat gal din keep quiet..i tink she's empathisized with me also lah...i'm grateful enuff le...

i tink this race has really made me more aware of my own "condition"! still i wanna try the MARATHON! but muz train lor...so i wonder if i can do it end of this year!! dunno lah...set a goal first...hah...it has certainly made me see the other side of other pple in boat? like may, last time in trekking i find her alwiz so bochap or AS...but this race makes me think she is quite funnie and fun to be with...and she even suggested both our teams can go tog, cos they got 2 guys, then we 2 gals mah, then can 1 guy take care of 1 gal...i told her nvm lah, cos we all the super hilarious team, so better not, later we "caused" them not to finish or sth...but am appreciative at her thoughts lor :)

overall : good feeling lah :)
the best? i tink is the jumping of water at merlion le...IF can just idle inside will be best lor....and if we weren't so tired already! cos it's so cooling!

organise gathering

2006-03-27T11:18:00.000+08:00

I'd been asked to organise for gsocks gathering by someone...saying, hey, we havent come out for a while liao, wanna organise a gathering with gsock pple?
i replied, sorry i'm v busy lately, will not be free to organize...reply came back was "ok, let me c..."
is it cos i organise then ev time i muz be the one to initiate? cant someone else do the job?
i tink in tat family, nobody or only onebody will understand this kind of feeling...
u r only valuable to these pple when u help to organise a "party" for them to get tog...then u urself 90% of the time, be the one to get arrowed and then have to try to change and change meeting time to accomodate to some pple, yes, cos some pple has higher privileges...platinum membership mah...while me, who's all the while been on classic membership usually kena arrowed to organise yet no value-add. so sad rite? is this life?
it's not tat i dun want to organise lor...but at least MAKE ME FEEL APPRECIATED can or not?! it's just a feeling tat i'm taken for granted too many times that i dun want to be like tat anymore.
what i find "organise" means :
1) air-con place
2) place where we can sit n talk (but too many pple le, sit only can talk to those few pple ard ur seat, n there's some cliques gg on also, ok, some pple r just more comfy with some pple)
3) change time again and again to suit most pple of HIGH importance (those who definitely need to attend ones) even though these HIGH importance pple might feel it's ok to go without me, there are bound to be some DIRECTOR who insists to change!

Bt Timah hike

2006-03-26T09:00:00.000+08:00

went to bt timah for a hike today, first time in the year i came here again. in fact,
today i was early. little foot was telling me i alwiz late for many things. i tink there are times i was early, but even when i'm on time, the group alwiz start late, just plain waiting is really a torture for me.

ok i shall be punctual to all my appts from now! thanks to those who'd been so patient with me ya! every time i'm late, do u know that i feel bad when i let u wait for me...but do u feel bad when u let me wait for u? hmm...i dunno lor...but i find that at least i do inform whoever i am meeting to say i'll be late, or apologize(though many pple who dislike waiting finds it even madder when u apologize to them!!) and there are some frens who never bothers...just let u wait like 15mins, 1/2hr or 1hr and u have to call them or find ways to contact them to find out if they were really coming at all or can i walk away to shop ard while waiting for u?!! fed up! cos if u dun tell me, then when u reach, u cannot find me, then it becomes i late ah?! i got experience with such pple before lor...
SO whoever is reading this, pls make sure when u r late, TELL ME hor! it's ok, u can be late...BUT dun keep me waiting like i dunno wat's happening to u, i feel like a fool/giraffe leh! wait until neck long! at least i know u r late, then i can do sth else first rather than stand there and wait rite? ;b send sms also v hard ah?

actually, it's been very remarkable of me le...u know for my current job, i was never late for > 15mins! and many times i was in office even earlier, by 5 mins! this is already record broken for me! for someone who is usually late like 1/2hr in my previous jobs, ask me to go earlier is quite impossible one lor!
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ok, abt the bt timah hike...walked till dairy farm and did body rappelling and ascending. i dun really like the body rappeling...it looked so scary! but nevertheless i tried, though not so smooth to come down...had a little bit of problem cos i dunno is it cos i dun release enuff rope and i cannot use my body to push down myself...
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so much for the hike...rushed out at 420pm and head to my cycling training at east coast!
my cousin's husband was a mo-gui jiao lian! keep pushing me u know! saying, u ride so slow how to win?! and i ride really fast, at least, it's the fastest that i had ever ride! i tink having a higher seat is indeed easier on the butt...my butt is not so painful...and just found out from wh earlier...to change the gear shd be from 1->2->3->4 one by one...not 1->4 like tat...haha...it din occur to me it's the same as driving car lor...
oh ya, i tink driving a car is much easier to learn...and cycling is easier to learn than blading...
had a delicious kenny rogers meal after tat...yummilicious!! it's really nice to have a walk at ecp at nite...i tink i shd come more often..if got free parking at work, i will want to go blading ev nite!

Learning how to cycle

2006-03-25T10:00:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I cycle. I learnt it only 2x previously!
1x - secondary sch time, when i went to sentosa with my frens to do a geography project, then tat time sentosa got those $18.90 kind of promo where u can go to various site attractions...so we went all over n one of the fren suggested cycling...we dunno so in the end, she taught us....1 teacher to 2 students...haha...i was 1 of the students...
then after tat i managed to wobble my way thru...and then it's time to return the bike..1 hr and 2 of us learning mah, so it's not easy...

2x - dunno why, but my aunt(my cousin's mum) suddenly wants to bring us to east coast. then my cousin promised to teach me...so i went and learnt...this was really unforgetable...cos i almost hit into a bush while learning...i was riding too fast and i cannot control my hands well...woaahhhha...well...tat's wat they said mah...ride fast, easier to learn...so i pedal v hard lor...but my feet alwiz slip off the pedal somehow! then end up my calf got alot of the orr-you!!
then by time i was able to ride a little more confidently, meaning can ride fast and not so bad, wont go into bush, it's time to go home lor!

3rd time...which is today. learning from little foot this time...it's quite easy to be a cycling teacher huh;>
went to bishan park in the morning...then we rent one bike...the auntie was so helpful...and showed to me how to ride. then i tried....the bmx...after 1 round, i decide to change to mountain bike, cos it's a requirement in the race...
it'd become the reason for me to learn cycling!
i ride for 1.5hr...round and round bishan park...took a rest and try again...ok lah...i tink on that kind of terrain, i'll be ok...if those rocky path maybe not...anyway, if want to fall, just put leg down then will be ok le ba...

See now so big liao still dunno how to cycle...ev1 was pretty shocked when they know i cannot cycle! haha..wat to do leh...my dad JUST DUN ALLOW ME TO LEARN LOR! to him it's v dangerous...he's afraid i go on the road i tink...then somemore one of his fren's son died in an accident cos of cycling...
i still dun dare to tell my parents i actually went to learn how to cycle in the morning...haha...they'll kill me if they know!

my Project is LIVE !

2006-03-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

Finally rolled out...with little problems...still have problems but still manageable...

Pre-Race training
No time! the training starts at 730pm at yishun safra! i went off at ard 6pm. in the end, we reached > 730pm n i havent got changed! supposed to be in PE attire.
have to walk down a slope to the training room! woah, i was wearing heels i find tat i cant balance! took off my shoes and went down barefoot! the pple inside was errr...this gal wear one-piece dress n walk like tat...haha
so paiseh! sweating some more...the training was abt rock wall climbing, abseiling and ascending.
first one is the rock wall climbing...so scary! i climbed mid way and my heart was pumping so fast! i was scared! i think i am afraid of heights!!
by the time i went up, i was shivering! then my belayer..hmph! i dunno wat's really happening lor...i was up there already and she was still not giving me any command, so i'm supposed to hang up there? then i shouted falling lor...cos i really have no strength liao...
i tink my heart is so chicken in rock climbing...the rock wall is already inclined so it shd be easier to climb, yet i was so afraid! :|
abseiling and the ascend seems ok...just hope tat day will be ok too!

Last minute work!!

2006-03-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

Monday was here and there's no problem liao, the vendors opened up the FW n we can all access. Then until 4pm, my leader suddenly say, u go and check whether the email link the external users can click or not.
DARN! cannot! but got attachment also so it's ok rite? my users agreed...but my leader still wants it solved by TODAY! had a merry-go-round to find the pple...it's again ports not opened!
so in the end, till 9pm, we managed to iron out the problem! luckily my infra guys helped me. otherwise i really dunno wat to do man!
cos for me, i tink my main problem is i do not know who to go to, who to get info from. since there are appl vendors and infra vendors...and appl vendor still have their own infra vendors...then it's actually the appl's infra vendor whom i shd approach!
so luan!
PMS with my boss - quite ok, but not much time that i am here so nuttin much i can talk. time flies...i'm here for F.I.V.E mths already!! High FIVE!

LIVE project preparation

2006-03-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

Woah, for this little enhancement project, i have to go back to office on sunday (missed my SALT!! :()and do appl testing so tat by Tues (21/03/2006) it is running fine!
Went to office at 5pm, then test until 630pm...appl test finished!
BUT my network drive cant map again!! duh! it seems like the same problem as domain migration last wk! 8pm...i called my boss telling him i'm left with this portion...he sound concerned!
then said ok, we hung up. I prepared to go home already...but who knows 1/2 hr later, he called me again, saying he spoke to another vendor's manager and they agreed to help us solve to9!!
meaning i have to stay le! otherwise the vendor solve then i go home?? so i waited and waited while my appl side vendor try other ways and means...we gave up! it's FW issue!
so managed to speak to the infra side vendor and then we deduced it to be really FW issue and tat's already like 10.30pm! so speak to my boss n told him tat we can only do it tmr cos otherwise the infra vendor have to go back to office at tat hour...luckily my boss agreed tat we can all go back!
then after my appl vendor report to their boss, n infra vendor report to their boss, i can only go home at 100am!!
JE SUI FATIGUER! too tired...i earned myself another day of leave :)

Signed up for Adventure Race

2006-03-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

I seriously think i gila! i dunno wat makes me go and sign up for a race, where cycling is one of the item and I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO CYCLE!!! what a joke rite?
initially i thot it's a relay kindda thing mah, then my other team mate can help me accomplish the cycling task, who knows it's EV1 must be able to complete the 8 items individually but as a team!
so i have to do intensive training for my cycling for this wk and the next...but...NO MORE TIME!!! :|
Race is on 2nd April...

what a close shave!

2006-03-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

wow, today almost fell down man, so malu! when i was coming up the escalator from cityhall...then running late liao...my left feet prolly stepped on sth slippery n i bend left, then my right leg touched the floor...luckily din fell...but like ev1 behind me was AAHHH.....

Migration problems

2006-03-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

Never think domain migration can cause so many problems to my applications:( was in office from 9am to 630pm man! Sunday leh!! but ok lah, i can claim a day off...hee:)

SUPER WORKOUT!

2006-03-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

1230pm to 445pm : company badminton tournament (HEE...i got 2nd runner up for women doubles leh!! got a trophy n $40 taka voucher ;b then i heard will be getting towel n some other division prize...wooo...)
actually never expected..initially wanted to get last, so tat got prize one! but happen tat my partner n me want to fight it out at the last moment ;b
was in mixed doubles n women doubles. so i played 1x - mixed doubles, 2x - women doubles + 2/3 rounds for finals. luckily we managed to kill the opponent in 2 rounds, otherwise have to complete all 3 rounds b4 we win!! phew...1st round was 14/15, 2nd round was 2/15 ;b

500pm to 630pm : since i nothing to do, i went to my tennis coach's place first and idle lor...in the end, i decided to wash my car.

700pm to 900pm : tennis lesson...super tired man... dead beat! i feel like a superwoman!!

Happy birthday ah chun!

2006-02-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

wallaby's bday & tennis game combined

2006-02-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

had a v rushed lunch with wallaby n cc gang cos gotta rush for lessons at 2pm! shdn't have agreed to go lunch cos i tink it's not so good to be so rush, but cos i havent seen the folks for some time!
in the end, although din get to talk much to ml, sf, jo n ginny, but i can feel their love for me...and nevertheless, i got to catch up with mh, wallaby and auntie por!
kindda miss miss yap! havent seen her for a long long time, and she is alwiz so amicable! it's also great to hear my lil darlings are still surviving in the warmer envt in comfort!
seems tat now it's still pretty political abt work allocation and stuff and wow, my successor is actuallie a MASTERS grade person leh! feels kindda underpaid! cos imagine my job shd be done by a MASTERS and i'm only a BACH(bug?*_*) to do tat job? i shd have been given a MASTERS' pay then rite?! hmph!

anyway, i dunno how wallaby had enjoyed her bday, cos i MIA after lunch to go classes...heard they went to movie and dinner then ktv..only managed to join them at ktv...initially dun want to go already cos super duper tired :| but since i promised them..esp 3inn0c lor!!! duh! i bet wallaby muz be so happy since she managed to play from day to nite!
As for me, i'm DEAD BEAT! cos running ard since morning! like wat yam alwiz say abt me, i'm having such a hectic life! come to tink of it, my wkends are alwiz so bz...really...i tink i'll prefer to meet up with frens in wkdays now...cos can just eat dinner tog, then catch up with each other...and my wkends muz reserve for my outdoor activities!
I think I really cannot stand sedentary lifestyle now :( haha...so much diff from what i used to be, in sch! i never know why the change...perhaps to lose weight? to look good? tat's my primary reason when i started out to be more active in CL! passionate place for my exercise regime! then can get to know almost the whole company people then! hah...i enjoyed it. last time in sch, i was always overweight and never had the good books of others, cos, 1) i'm plump, 2) i got bad complexion, 3) i'm not frenly at all! i tink i like me better now. though my physical appearance can still be improved, like slimmer, and face maybe not so rough, i tink i'd become more smiley lor...which is a good change!

sharing my little secret here...i want to be bikini ready! bwhahaha....for diving in apr!! shh...u know, i alwiz envy those angmohs, with their lump of fats drooping and yet they DARE to BARE? i tink for once in my life, i want to flaunt my figure man! haha...not in sg, cos it's so...erm..unless i have washboard tummy? cos sg is quite conservative after all...and the guys will be like drooling or puking...at least overseas got angmohs to complement mah...then not so jialat! so in order to "flaunt" my figure, i gotta be bikini ready lor! and so, ev1, if u need exercise partners, ask me along! i'll be most willing to do it with u! and remind me to eat less n more healthy!! :D help me achieve my goal k!

today, ah chun gave me a surprise call...i tink i wouldnt have answered if i know it's from him! i think it's his home number...i am trying to avoid them...i dunno...i just want to avoid my once beloved cacas for a while...after wat i felt from the many mths of self denial...i dunno if i am still able to be the person i used to be with them. frenly forces? hmm...i tink i'm avoiding to give...and i want to avoid take! no give no take. period. frankly, i was somewhat elated upon hearing his voice! I think I missed them too much:6 For a few moments i almost want to burst into tears! that he does care and he called to ask me how i was. previous weeks he sent me a couple of sms. but i chose to ignore them. i did not reply. i lied to him! i said i didnt receive any smses from him. he was tinking to himself! how strange! i din elaborate. he wanted to meet up, i tink it's better he organise this time, if he ever rem...cos wo shi rong yi shou shang de nyu ren:'( and i'm v tired.

tennis is now combined with a couple! mother and son! mother looked so young tat we thot they r couple!
mother is a jovial looking woman, son is V V V shy and i dunno how to break a conversation with him! oh...i tink he looks like JAY! small small eyes, quite tall...
but i tink he's so young! prolly just poly student? what a pity! haha..but he's too quiet for me! really dunno how to break the ice! hope he can be less shy after knowing us the crazy gals! hah...i enjoyed the sessions as we get to play with different partners and we are not just restricted to ourselves!
it's a good start for my tennis passion this year :D yeah looking forward to next week's lobbing and underhand serves!

lost track

2006-02-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

lately i seem to have lost track of time, money, frens, work, everything. i just feel that time flies pass me so fast. today is 16 feb already! everything is just going on and on and i can hardly take a breather to appreciate things around me!
work is free yet busy? cos i got a lot of PAPERWORK like schedules, graphs to draw for my boss lor!
then no time to exercise so very fat now!
no money to go holiday!

back to my lao-sao....
frens whom i had earlier said were goners? cos it seems to be a cold war now...kindda given up hope la! it's really sad rite? to think we had been so close now so far? i don't know if my heart can be opened once more. and i don't know if there's any rescue to our bad patch? much as i wanted, my heart keeps saying "try to forget, try to forget..."i'll have to learn to forget....

like what these folks always say "pple come and go?" FRANKLY, i really hate these words man! i really dun believe such thing would happen to me unless the person dies and go! but sadly, i have many frens, or perhaps they should be be better termed acquaintances now? that feels that way? i believe in forever friends! if we do our part! don't you agree?
well, everyone thinks they are right in their own ways. everyone has their own lives. what can i do? one cannot love to order? maybe that's what this phrase meant? it's HEARTBREAKING!!!!!!

read in hl's blog that i did not tell so how would the other person know about what happened to me, that shows how impt that person is to me! ok, i just find it so hard to tell...esp of unhappy and grief stricken situations! even if i tell you, what would you have done? then i'll say, if you never ask, or never frequently ask, then, how am i supposed to tell? viscous cycle right? think about it, egg or chicken first?

it seems that if i do not tell you what happened to me, that means you are not important huh?! well...then if you did not tell me, means i am not important to you also right?
and should i go around telling everyone whom i feel important and then end up getting more hurt when i get the "unexpected" replies? which is what i did! BUT the experiment failed and that's what triggered me to hold back!

Lesson learnt : do not experiment with friends. they are not guinea pigs! and if you get what you want, it seems lady luck is smiling on you, otherwise, it may turn upside down, like now! flames in the blogs and airing our opinions around!

Anyway, an acquaintance recently advised me something..i should not assume! ok, i should learn to be a better programmer, do not assume! always ask ask ask!
i tink i should apply to my friendships i hope to build?

aint i petty? i tink i am a difficult person to get along with...cos too demanding on my frens and expect a lot from them.

Selfish. Unreasonable.Spoilt brat!

rainy day

2006-02-09T16:26:00.000+08:00

today somewhat i feel unhappy...and it's a rainy day...wish i can sleep at home!
kindda PO with my leader! there's a new project coming along and it's gg to be in j2ee and she just grab it and cast me aside, my vendor keep asking and assuming tat i'll be in the proj, since she is, and i'm her backup.
i told them i'm not but they said impossible. maybe i'm busy with my project now...well...this proj is quite a big thing lor...and she wants to claim all the credit mah..those small fry kindda thing she let me do...
this one like gg to be watched by jap side, etc, then she like VOLUNTEERED! how ugly a person's character is!
i know, she wants to do new things also and i am still new, but if i'm not gg to be involved, say so! why say, maybe not at the moment...then like give me false hope? like i care!
and still say maybe not now? then if i'm gg to be involved later, then it's like i dunno head or tail! grr...she's a person whom i love and hate here!
i tink i still have reservations in her...sometimes, i find tat she'll be so helpful..when i ask her qns in front of our boss...otherwise, she'll give me some answer and ask me to go and follow up..then it become my problem!
taichi master! s*cks!
dun care lah, i 1 2 learn wat i nid 2 & disappear from here! anyway, she dun let me involve also better, then i have more time for myself! :D
see now so free until i can do blogging..hah...

cny

2006-01-30T19:11:00.000+08:00

this year, my cny is really quiet.

received a few sms from some frens who werent really in contact. feel really good abt it :)

1st day, went to my dua-gu's place for gathering. cos we are not allowed to celebrate. then 2nd day, my dad's side relatives come to our place and that's all.

so i have time now, to change my blog skin :) but halt! the skins i want are in XANGA:( i tink i have to source for others first le!! :|

too much rest is really bad! makes me even more tired! haha...anyway, i miss my exercise regime! i hope to try for the standard chartered marathon this year so i better start practising! shall start on it next week :)
*pray for good weather!*

avocado milk shake! :b~~~

2006-01-30T19:05:00.000+08:00

i did it! it was a success! and it was DELICIOUS!

Recipe goes :
2 avocado ($1.35 each, bot at giant)
1 can of carnation condensed milk ($0.90 per can, bot at giant)
5 dessertspoon of sugar (tried to search the net and i saw 1/2 cup of sugar, seems too much!! i tink i shd make this only 4 dessertspoon, shd be good enuff already! )
1 cup of water
1 tray of ice-cubes.
Blend until it's flowing liquid.

total costs : $3.60

it was thick and i got 3 large packets! so yummy! but pity the avocado i bot was 2 weeks ago and it was a bit overripe already! never mind, i'll try it with fresher ones next time! maybe next time, banana smoothie? :Þ~~~

I was confirmed

2006-01-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

My AGM(acting GM) and manager arranged a mtg with me, and i was told that i was confirmed! manager mentioned tat i studied jap and my AGM was surprised.
took the chance to express interest to be posted to japan but my AGM said i need to be able to converse in japanese before i can be posted there. otherwise, i will need to be well-versed in the company's culture before i can go! that's one more reason for me to master the language which i had studied for 4 years...ashamed of myself! cos i did not make much progress! lazy me, lazy to rem the vocabs! but now i got more motivation! i told them it's my greatest gift for the new year.

decided to lie to my vendors tat i wasnt confirmed. one of them was pretty sad...i asked why, he said he had no one to disturb already. the other did not want to believe me, said i'm lying! am i so untrustworthy? he just dun want to believe!
i tink if it's true, he'll be so sad too! am i being bad? make my happiness out of other's sadness?
they asked me several times during the day and over the week, i just said no. i was given a termination letter and i'll be gone after cny, when my team lead comes back from leave.

hmm..recently really talked alot to my vendors, abt my work, and sometimes i tink my chat with them became OVER-FRIENDLY! cos some of the things or my thoughts i told them, but tink those things are what should not be said or better left unsaid:( but i tink when i talk, i really treat them as friends instead of vendors! it was an unconscious effort...cos they are really pretty good to me, except the bullying sometimes lah...besides, last time in cc, i got 3inn0c, miss bee, guruji to talk to me, here, i hardly have the chance to talk to anyone else, except in mtgs! so when they are here, i finally have the chance to talk more than my normal day at my desk. maybe it's deprivation bah...ok, i'll be cautious with my words next time! shouldn't be letting my guard down so easily huh? when i hardly know these pple? but then, by the time i know them, when will tat be? i din care tat much..
ok, since they are not too bad to me, i decided, when i go back to office, i'll tell them the truth!
actually part of the reason why i lied is, although the office confirmed me, i dunno if i wanna confirm myself! i feel i'm redundant there. and a lot of things, my users liaised directly with my vendors, making me even more redundant!?
Last time in cc, i also need to do wat my vendors do, like testing for them, coding for them, etc. now everything done by vendor! even my vendor now, he consoled me, saying i'm not redundant, i felt really appreciated!
he asked me wat's the role of a pm and a pl? since i'm a PL, i shd do wat a PL shd do, make the project go through, and he evem taught me how to present to these jap bosses! my team leader isn't tat helpful u know? tat's y i'm tinking, am i redundant? even this kind of thing i need my vendor to teach me? i feel like a little kid...he's my mama...cos his name is mamaril...haha...i called him mama...he'll give me tat annoyed look! cos maril in tagalog meant a shooter...and mama sounded so sissy! but now when i call him mama, he's ok..hehe...i won!

when he learnt abt wat happened a few days ago, with my ah-ma, when i came back, he came so close to me, gave a pat on my back and asked if i am ok. i really felt TOUCHED! none of my frens did tat to me leh! i felt he's really a kind soul despite his smoking and drinking! or maybe he just noe how to touch a girl's heart? maybe tat's y i started to talk so much to them! ok, he's a married man! dun u start hallucinating! i tink i want to be more outward in my expressions next time too, cos it really will make another person feel better esp when he/she is all down and out! also asked him to be my nihongo sensei! he kindda agreed...but we havent started practising leh!

the very very least tat i can do, is to stay with them when they OT in office...cos i rem last time in CL, when i OT and no one staying with me, i felt so YUCKS! i hope i can change this, if i have staffs under me next time, tat's wat i'll do too! even if i just stay and do some work or surf web, i tink being around will certainly help to boost their morale and efficiency! cos for mon and tues when i left for my "something ons" one developer said HUH U R LEAVING ALREADY? :( i felt so bad abt it! cos i stayed with them b4 ah-ma passed away and tat's the only time i can spare, and i felt motivated to do, though it's nuttin much actually. i hope i'm right abt this motivation thingy lah..haa..BUT I REALLY FELT APPRECIATED this time!
my vendors are really SUPER! U GUYS ARE REALLY GREAT!!

spring cleaning

2006-01-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

aiyo, spring cleaning is really a chore! i found tat i have so many paper bags of things tat i bot all lying ard...recently just bot 2 cupboards...haven't packed them in yet! hope to get my things more organised!! ;| i'm too ambitious..i was tinking of painting my home...wahaha...but no time! this time i will CHOOSE THE COLOR! every time i have to give in to my mum and dad:( then the home is either white, beige, light yellow or light blue..i can never use those primary colours! grr...tat'll wait till after cny bah..after all the rushing ard the previous week, i can hardly do any cleaning up anyway! so let it be :D *escaped* some more i got so many things on...where got time! haha...and my project is rushing for dateline, they dun call it deadline there! so mon n tues i cant stay, so the rest of the days i got no choice but to stay with vendor. this year's cny seems to have the longest holiday man! bravo! i can sleep and sleep liao! :Zzzz

Reflections

2006-01-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

hmm..every time when someone passed away, i will ask myself. what's the use of attending the funeral everyday when u dun even take care of the person everyday. is it the least i can do? i tink so. and i'm not a fillial person. i tink i'm really short-tempered...easily angered over trivial matters. i dunno why but i have lesser patience with my parents lately and alwiz flaring over little things. my mum alwiz got scolded by me, i tink it's really bad of me, but then i just CANNOT CONTROL!! maybe m getting schizophrenia (http://www.mentalhealth.com/book/p40-sc01.html ok, at least i'm not hearing a lot of things) like she keep asking me the same qns again and again and i'm really fed up answering her! that i shouted at her! what's happening to me? i'm rude, impossible! and even if she say sth i just feel like shouting at her nowadays! cos it's really unbearable...nerve breaking! then my dad, he's alwiz assuming he is correct and just a little wait gets me into trouble and he'll blame my mum for my mistake. then i will scold my mum for being so weak alwiz getting scolded by him! she just wont learn and i'm begining to hate my family! every thing seems to go wrong! how come last time it's not like this? is this called "jia-bian"? shd i seek counsellor advice? :|

picking up the bones

2006-01-22T18:13:00.000+08:00

time to arrive 830am. we went back to mandai crematorium to pick up the ash. it was a solemn place, everyone did not talk and just waited. we collected the ash from a tupperware box, labeled room 2. then the personnel came with the urn and the hierarchy goes again. we were supposed to throw one gold coin and one silver coin into the urn. when we throw, we are supposed to hear the jingles of the coins, so i literally toss the coins into the urn to get that SHINGing sounds. after tat, he selected some more prominent bones, which is the skull and said to be placed last. so he selected other bones and then my dua-gu start first followed by 2nd ah-gu etc...when we put the bone into the urn, we are supposed to call out to ah-ma and say nice things to her, like ah-ma stay in big house and then when it's my turn, i got a part which looks like the spinal cord area. the bone when it is burnt is charred. u can feel the crispiness. and inside is brownish like a part of the casuarina wood. outside is greyish white. i wonder how can we be burnt and yet the bones will not be burnt totally. i expect real ASH! as in i cannot even see the bones anymore! maybe it's the heat and time of burning. anyhow, put bones in, say nice words, wash hands. tat's it! turn our backs again, and the personnel covered the urn. then we let ah-ma go out of the room first then we followed behind. they have to use a umbrella to shelter her urn. so we went to the temple to place her urn there. there i saw ah-gong's urn too. they were born in 1919 and 1916 respectively.
ah-gong was previously buried. now he's going to stay with ah-ma already. felt it's such a shiawase thing! xing fu! till death do us part!!
actually my ah-ma is born in year of chicken and her bday in january. so it's like before she step into year of dog, her time is up. is this really coincidence? it's 7 rounds of the cycle tat she stepped in. i never know my ah-ma is so fortunate too! cos my ah-gong had made arrangements to take care of her if he leaves her first and the children wont take care of her, there's a dedicated monthly allowance of $300 given to her by my ah-gong's factory. though it's a really small amt in this era, but i tink it's really a very thoughtful gesture of ah-gong. and whatever it is, he really takes care of ah-ma without her to worry of anything. i hope i can find a husband like ah-gong man! hah...hope my ah-gong and ah-ma will live happily ever after.

the funeral

2006-01-21T18:00:00.000+08:00

the departure time is 1500hrs...we reached ah-gu's place at 10am, get ready, wear socks, and this time, the procession is different from what i had experienced before with my other ah-gongs and ah-mas....it's a simpler process. we had chanting again, forbid us to cry. mum did, i know she did. cos i saw her body with the sobbing action and the personnel was saying to her, "BU XU KU!! everyone do not cry!" then after which we walked around the coffin 3 times, throwing flowers, from those flowers wreaths...then we stand beside the coffin, male left female right wrt how ah-ma is layed. those married ones, were given the choice to buy fruits basket to pay respect...or xian hua...so those married ones each couple, from dua-gu till my level married ones all prayed with the fruit baskets. the rest of us remained in our position. after tat, the guests came to pay their respect where we were supposed to bow to thank them. i thot they will be standing ard, so i thot only bow at the end, who knows, i'm supposed to bow to each group! OOPS!
anyway, tink it doesn't matter cos nobody scolded...after all respects were paid,
the personnel told us to stand around, then turn our backs while they carried the coffin into the van. The personnel asked us to follow after with the hierarchy of my dua-gu, and so on..males first. then i'm the behind one.
i dunno why, but i dun feel sad at all..in fact, i felt so light and happy! is it the chanting or is it i'm not so attached to ah-ma? i dunno...it's a strange feeling..or is it cos nobody cried? after a few "miles" of sending off, we took bus to the mandai crematorium. there it's like so advanced now!
when u enter, they have those LED charts telling u when's who's turn and which room. my ah-ma is in room 4, which is upstairs. the room looked like lecture theatre/church also...where there are seats and then air-con some more! wow, it's an eye-opener! then we sat at the LT's seat and then the monk came by and chant, then asked us to take our "ha" off. so ah-ma is there in the coffin now, still we stand, males left, females right. then he asked us to go to the viewing room, where we'll see her off the last time. there we waited, but not so well-organised, cos maybe they din expect us to be such a big group, the tall ones will be blocking the back ones. 3rd ah-yee started to cry...mum followed, i told myself NO DUN CRY! U MUZ NOT CRY! i bear with it..and till i saw ah-ma's coffin..it's transported like LRT? where the machine moved the coffin towards the furnace...and my tears started to drip..dunno how many drops of tears...i prayed hard that she will not endure any more sufferings and that we will be safe alwiz and enjoy good luck after this. it's really a very helpless feeling, to see the coffin being pushed in and you HAVE TO DO IT though you do not want to do it:'( that's the last of ah-ma...god bless us all..

thereafter, we have to bring the photo and the incense to the temple, which is near novena...then we went to see where the "ling wei" will be. again the monk went and chant and we offered incense. back to ah-gu's place to have our meal. we were famished i guess, cos all the rice were finished! and my table alone had 2 rounds of all the food! then we were told to wear RED or anything with RED! mum, alwiz afraid of this and that, only brot a t-shirt with a little bit of red for my change. guess what, my rest of the cousins wear WHOLE shirt of red or pink lor! so i appear so weird! well..that's my mum...but what's more maddening is that she hor! she go and wear all red also leh! hmph! make me so awkward! grr...even my bro who has so few color t-shirt also is more colorful than me!! hmph hmph hmph! ok, tat's over! stop pondering over it! then finally we go home. tat's like 7pm when we reached home already and i just slept after my bath! too tired to do anything!

wake 4

2006-01-20T19:30:00.000+08:00

the final nite..this time round, the monks did all the chanting...we just sit there n hold the joss sticks...maybe to meditate? i dunno...i just sit there n close my eyes, cos so tired...after all the running ard...it's been so long since i have this kind of fatigue...je suis fatiguer! since to9 is the last nite, we started at 730pm till 10pm...3 times, with intermittent breaks during each hour...i'd never expect my colleague to come, she was the only one who came, on behalf to give white gold...i tink she came cos she's the closest to me, she's my team lead...and i tink the rest of the pple including her are the pantang kind...so i thot all wont come...so when she came, i was really surprised and pretty touched...(when i went back to work, nobody asked me anything...like pretend nothing had happened..is this normal?)

we stayed till like 2am this nite...

wake 3

2006-01-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

had a little problem at work and in the end, i did not managed to go with mum...went later...arrived at 8pm...luckily they have not started the chants yet! JIT! then we begin the process again...

today, we din talk as much..but bro went to play da-lao-er with my cousins..while i become cleaner to clear the tables...initially dunno why so STOOPID! i go and clear all the peanuts, and things when after a while then i realised i could have just take the whole plastic table cloth and dispose everything! my mind's not working anymore! haha..ooh, the vegetarian chicken soup is delicious...yum...
after the clearing..i really cannot tahan anymore! my eyes are drooping liao! i went to car and sleep...dun care whether it's safe or not, i left the car door open..and just sleep! too tired liao...went home at 2am this time...anyway, tmr applied for compassionate leave liao!! i really need SLEEP!!!!!!!! zzzzzzzz

wake 2

2006-01-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

went to work today, with such a sad look on my face that my vendor asked me y i looked so sad! i cant lift my spirit at all, no matter how many deep breaths i took! i tink i'm also too tired...cos prior to the actual death, my ah ma was in hospital and ev nite i went there till 130am and next day gotta wake up super early also...i was emotionally and physically drained this time...when i told my vendor wat happened, i almost wanted to cry...but keep fighting back my tears...anyway, the whole day, i was just a floating spirit ard office...din accomplish much and yet still there trying hard to keep myself awake...
1730...i knocked off...and hurriedly went back to prepare for the chantings...the process repeats..wear uniform, inform ah ma i'm there for her..then start chanting..without dinner again..but at least after the chants, we can have dinner, cos they engaged cooks...then after tat, we sat at a corner again...this time, brenda came over and invite my bro over to talk abt nap..heard so many funnies from her..she's really a grown up young lady now...last time i saw her, she's still so small! time flies..at least today i felt better with my cousins again...

wake 1

2006-01-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

went there and wore the uniform...then prayed to ah ma to inform her i'd arrived..then we started our niam-geng program...which lasted abt 1 hr 30min...i havent ate dinner...hungry again...and then we kneel and pray a few times, walk around the place like 3x...really felt distant from my cousins! cos i rarely see them and i dun even noe wat they do...so have to slowly one by one ask...but ask le, i tink i dun really rem after a while, so i thot maybe dun ask bah...after the process...my bros and me, 3 isolated children sat at a corner table..like we dunno them like tat..feel so awkward! then ah-hui my batch one..came to talk to us..i know she's trying to mingle with us ba..but sorry lah, i dunno what to say also...cos it's been so long i never talked to them! and normally during cny, i also rarely talk to them..cos they nvr talk to me, i dunno why, but i felt ostracised...so i kept my distance...only ah-hui alwiz talks to us...so we still talk to her, but now, cos it's too long i din talk to her...it's hard to start to talk..i need to warm up...

life's like that

2006-01-17T18:45:00.000+08:00

as she lay on the death bed, it's the first time i feel and saw a body with just the shell..it's like she is face-white and no matter how we nudge her, she just dun budge a thing...lifeless...i arrived too late...it was 10am in the morning when mum called me..said, ah ma is gone...she'll only have 3 hours...u better come home early tonite..i said...3 hours, then my mind was in a whirl...i dunno what to do...called my boss and asked for urgent leave...off i went to fetch mum and reached nuh at 11.15...but she's already gone!!!!! tear drops in my eyes...why she din wait for me b4 she breathed her last...i just realised i dun hate her as much anymore...and i really felt so sad..and i got headache less the heartache...mum and ah yees..was crying badly...

we waited in the hospital for the pple to "pack my ah ma" in the bag...it was a long wait! waited till 3pm...was so hungry and i felt fainty...then we proceed to the mortuary..first time i went there, so feel a bit scared...we went there to collect the death cert...and by time we finished and able to bring ah ma back to my uncle's place, was around 4pm liao...then wait for the tent to be set up and it was raining...it was a hard day for me i tink...cos i din sleep well for the past few days and was rushing here and there evday...esp today...it's exceptionally tiring to even drive...then when the monk came, it was around 5pm liao...chant and prayed...by time i can get back, it's ard 6pm le...
and i got a summon again! $10 for exceeding time parked there...
today really terok lor...i spent $20++ on car parking alone!
$1 erp at alexandra
$0.50 erp at suntec entrance
$5 at work (cos my colleague did not managed to get the coupon for me in time..i was rushing back to see ah ma so i din wait for her 5 mins...)
$3.60 parking at NUH...
$1 parking at ah ma's block carpark..my mum said shd be able to finish by 5pm so i thot $1 is enuff...then i forgot to go and update the coupon!
$10 summon lor...
total : $21.10 actually if take cab to and fro, will also be able this price also lah...some consolation...

then i wonder...if i tell gsocks pple, wat'll they react? was telling little foot...ok, i'm just a bee...not like some other pple who'll definitely have a lot of TLC one...and it's cny period, so i dun expect pple will come to the wake also ba..
then tell for what? i just did an experiment and it proves me right...later someone also came to ask me am i in sg cos cant find me...if i'm that impt to u, then u cant find me, will u just stop there??? ok, at least u tried 1x to find me, better than those who never even tried! some consolation again!
well..i din go to the last gathering...not really cos my ah ma's unwell..but i just dun want to see them anymore...i'm really tired of them...tired. period.

at this time, when i told pple, my grandma passed away, i heard a lot of "i'm sorry, U take care hor" many many times...but it just mean nuttin to me after many many times...i felt so far away from the person saying to me...they shall be labelled as acquaintances...in fact, i feel it's even more devastating to hear tat...but i guess what can they say rite? if someone say tat to me, what will i say to them? hmm...maybe i did tat to them b4 too! serve me right lor!

anyway, i'm just a complaining bee...

BGR?

2006-01-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

It's the first Fri the 13th of the year. Had a date with someone and it's my very first one...as in only me and the guy! normally my dates will swirl around with other pple, but this time, it's only us! we had coffee at starbucks suntec and just chat and chat...hah..actually by 10pm, both of our bladders are almost bursting! then i asked..erm..i would like to visit the loo...can u wait for me? he said, AH i also v urgent, let's leave!! we both dashed for the toilet!! then he said actually he v urgent but thot of just talking and talking! i thot we r leaving home after toilet..so initially i dun want to ask..cos i wanted to talk longer...but after i came out of the washroom, he sugguested we adjourned to find dinner for me...cos i had not eaten...so we went to food court, closed! in the end, we had mac...happily chatting away again..he's not working anymore and he gave me treats..feel so paiseh...and he's going for further studies..anyway, he said he's not interested in r/s and i feel safer talking abt r/s with him...in the first place, i dun expect any love out of us, so at least i feel better..but he does give me this little hope and he does make me feel SO IMPORTANT!!! i love that feeling! i hesitated to ask him to give me a hug, or just hold my hand and we walk to cityhall mrt..i wanted so much to ask but my character had stopped me...it's such a short walk back to the mrt and we left for home...he sent me an sms saying tat he's so glad we met...i feel so touched...
he also asked me not to reject any love..if it comes...i wonder when it will though...

i tink i alwiz have a bad habit...for guys whom i seldom confide in, are either 1) they are OUT OF THE QUESTION, incorrigibly bad, or 2) i tink we have a chance, and i prefer u to ask me more qns, if u keep quiet, means u r not interested in me and i wont say much more. so for those guys whom i really talk a lot with, more craps...those who dun ask me and yet i crap, i tink my line is u r just a friend.
so for him, i dunnno...i like to talk to him cos he gave me all his attention!! even when a pretty low cut babe walked by, he is still looking at me and listening...even if he is not, i feel he did it pretty well...and it's him when i feel important..thanks pal!

there's another guy...i just met..he said he wanted to make me the most happiest girl in the world..i was shocked but touched..he's the first guy who said that to me...but till now, he did not take any action..so i tink probably he's just saying tat to every girl!! well...i dunno maybe my taohua starts coming in bah...hope my wish will come true...as now, even my cousin who is 21 is getting married in aug 2006! ev1 starts to say eh, u better catch up hor!
i just replied, i dunno how to! ya, i really dunno how to...i am not attracted by the mammal kingdom's bees and butterflies...though terrifiedly, i attracted the insect kingdoms' bees and butterflies! hiak! what an irony!

Sports climbing

2005-12-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

It was fun but I really did not use technique properly cos I feel so weak and no Strength at all to stand up. Got cramps at my feet and hands...so scared to advance till a bad cramp I had to relax and my poor belayer had to tahan for me...hah...but it was fun! and I also know the proper way to do be lay and to let a person down! It was a tiring sport! I think I will like bouldering...shall try it the next time :)

chi0-ness

2005-12-09T18:00:00.000+08:00

sigh i tink i wont be fixing my camera! cos so ex! optical lens is spoilt,
cost $251.80 and the service charge is $80! total is $331.80
leh...according to experts, i can get a 2nd hand of my cam for abt tat
price and also digicam, fix liao, will still spoil again one!
might as well save the money and then buy a better one!! :|
so sad, cos g3 had been with me for like 4 years? it's hard to let it go
like that :'( well..now, occasionally, i can still use but sometimes, it
can, sometimes it can't so sad lor...ya, i tink nikon d70 is quite
chio...but i tink there's newer models..

was talking to 3inn0c...we were discussing abt chobus...
hmm...actually someone who is 33...i tink if 33 got this kind of face,
really not bad liao lah:)
and got slim figure...so i tink maybe tat's y pple say she is chio lor..
but hor, i tink a guy's chio-ness is alwiz diff from a girl's perception
one...
and if she's the wife, the husband, surely will say she chio wat..
and if she knows how to talk to men, men will also tink she is chio rite?
and maybe her leg/other parts of the body is attractive leh...then to men,
she is also chio rite? haha

oops, am i indirectly saying tat men are superficial???

firedrill...

2005-12-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

today my orpit got firedrill...nobody(not many pple) went down leh...i also dunno if i shd go down...but i'm on 13th floor, later need to climb up lor! since many pple
din go, i also stayed...to be burnt alive! ok, i'm still alive, otherwise i
wont be able to write these liao! but i tink i'll have a black mark on my name!! oops! :|

reminds me of firedrill in cc and cl...last time we have a office compound, and it's like a short break for us...haha...i tink i quite like these drills...except from the loud deafening sirens!!

my wish list for 2006

2005-12-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

my wish list for year 2006! i never made one any past year! but maybe i'm getting older! so...here it is!
1) a prettier me!
2) no more pimples!
3) more money for myself!
4) a notebook or ibook or nikon d70!
5) my better half (nowadays, many often tells me, singles are better than doubles!! how should i take their advice?)
6) i want a flat lower abs!
7) i want to go holiday > 2 weeks kind!
8) i want to work overseas!
9) i want my family to be well and close
10) i want to be ren jian ren ai like 3inn0c..hee..!

Singapore Standard Chartered Marathon 2005

2005-12-04T03:00:00.000+08:00

It was not too well managed! the volunteers were ill-treated! well...at least i feel i am!
initially when i got down to work, which is b4 sunrise, i was pretty PO cos that lady who asked me to report at 3am and then said, just report and get ur stuff,
i kept asking in my emails where i'm supposed to do and where, but this is the only reply i got...who knows it's such a chaotic place...initially i was a route marshal then become a start/end pt marshal ;(
i thot i'll like to be a route marshal better cos can cheer for the participants mah :)

but start/end pt also good lah, i can give my frens a pat when they come back!! :)

so after mr hardy took me in, and i got on my job...is ok, i was enthusiastic abt it and greeted as many runners as i can and gave them directions..the feeling of pple smiling back at u and returning ur salution is G8!

then comes flag off and we were arranged to go to the drink station to help out! it was so hot and they never think of providing shades for us!! no caps, no shelters!
crazy? we could have got heat strokes! and we volunteers leh, gotta carry the heavy mineral water for the runners!

so tat was something i dun like...

then after tat, we gotta wait like 1 hour to get our miserable token of $20! cos they called for route marshals and we(start/end pt marshals) dun count as route marshals joined the wrong queue! stoopid rite! and made us stand under the HOT sun!!

anyway, these are the bad bad things lor...and no dri-fit t-shirt, no shorts, no shoes! how to AI_DI_DA like tat!!

then i thick skinned lor...i went to the booth distributing the t-shirt and ask if i can get their runners' black dri-fit adidas t-shirt, then the young boy gave me! he closed one eye...hah...luckily i chose the xs cos i tried and it's still quite big!! cant imagine if i chose M!! it'll be pyjamas again! anyway, they'll have a lot left one lor! although little foot said, since din run, wear already also no feeling, but i tink for me, i did run liao...cos i was near the start pt and i went to end pt le mah :) hehe...

but the good thing abt this is i met many frens here...some long lost...like rhodel and jerry, and dominic from FN! he still rems me and he said he's no longer there...but no time to ask him where he is! then the SAC guys they also ran....wow...they really zai lor!

i tink next time want to volunteer, must see carefully wat is the plan first!
cos i still like the interaction with the participants...

my dream! run a full marathon at least once in my whole life!! *i heard it's addictive! oops!*

i got a bit of tan and my eyes got red too! sausage mouth!! :@
took the train back and was dozing when i'm standing! reached home at 1800! after a chit chat at bk! haha...

hope next year they'll do better! must take care of volunteers mah! we are the resources leh!!

circular meeting

2005-12-03T12:00:00.000+08:00

well...i reached dou-bi-gou paradiz centre's tao restaurant to meet 3innoc and wallaby..the food was pretty good! :b~ and the gathering was good too! cos many of us were there! we have ml, sf, jo, 3innoc, gss, me, wallaby and ginny! everyone was so excited about our latest developments! haha...seems a few of us are not too happy after we left cc huh! i guess it's alwiz the lost then treasure kindda theory? when we were at cc, we dun really feel so much abt each other...then now we do! what an irony! after our ketchup sessions, we went to suntec cos our lucky wallaby won herself a $100 voucher from museum of the art exhibition..she's alwiz so lucky! then we decided to walk to marina sq after much loitering around, cos angela and andy hadn't eaten, so we went to cafe cartel! and eat! then i went back to isetan orchard to meet yam and the others! wow, see, i (je) -> dbg -> suntec -> orchard -> je...
then at nite, ard 12+ me and little foot decided to dawn somewhere near padang cos of the strange timing for the marathon event!! 3am! alas after walking much distance, we decided to settle down at marina's round seats...but i cant sleep well:( cos many mossies bit me and my head got several BAOs! aiya, shd have slept at the hotel lounge! then can sleep more and not have so many mossies!! :|
so we dawn till 3am then we go to report our duties!!
what a hectic day for me again huh?

i just want to be able to meet my frens and ketchup with them lor...cos during my exams, i forbid myself to go out with my frens for 3 whole weeks leh! so bad huh! so now, too deprived le! but i enjoyed meeting them all and just chit-chat abt themselves :) we should do that more often :D
oh yes, sorry wallaby, in the end, we did not manage to play bowling as you suggested and you seemed qutie sad about it! hope you'd enjoyed our chit-chat session as much as i do!! :D
poor 3inn0c's bracelet broke during our photo shoot! pls try to bargain for a waiver of the repair fee k! if u wanna do management, try to do some of this bargaining, it'll help u also! so see if u can tame the jin-xin shop!! hah...
jia you and hope ur bracelet will be rapair without u having to pay a single cent :)

sports expo

2005-12-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

reached at 9pm and have a glimpse of the expo..not much things to see...got rock wall, scuba try out and those yoga, etc but the stalls are closed...then in the end, it's a roller hockey match which attracted my attention! one of the guy in blue jersey is pretty cool leh! he is a bit like jay lor! hehe...he also plays pretty well...wish i can glide like he does!!

i watched till 930pm and the goal keeper is a girl and she seemed so tired! she's also so small size! the other goal keeper is bigger and better...black biscuit the opposing team, i tink the guys are in white-green jerseys...tat guy a bit tau leh! i asked if he's ok after the fall...he like yaya say, part and parcel liao!! then i asked him if it's friendly match..he looked like he is so PO with the results! duh! dun like to talk to him!

thereupon, i thot, t2 also plays rite? hope one day, i can see him in battleground! i tink he'll look cool in those big size jersey too!!

flying alone

2005-11-26T13:55:00.000+08:00

moved the travellers' tales to http://holixcalilbee.blogspot.com/

my Prized possession

2005-11-24T13:31:00.000+08:00

just recently, my fren went to japan and i managed to ask her to buy this for me! it's an electronic dictionary! really like it so much..it can translate a bit to other european langs too, like french, italian, german, etc...
have been wanting to get it already, just tat thot i can source for some softwares but din managed:(

ev yr, i will try to get one electronic gadget :) since nobody buy for me, i will pamper myself and buy one expensive gift for myself ev year:D

hmm...seems my cam is gg to ki qia :( got the black screen only sometimes!! :( dunno wat's wrong leh!

How I got my first kiss without me knowing!

2005-11-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

Dad asked if i met with an accident! To my dismay, my car got kissed!!
SO STOOPID LEH!! normally, we drive, we are more worried abt accidents on the road! Here, i just parked my car in my home's carpark and i did not drive it to work or anywhere, just park there! and some idiot prolly did a reverse until my car plate almost fell off! and the front got a little scratch mark!
then the car plate was dented and the white paint for the numbers 57 was also scratched!! It prolly happened in the aftn, cos my aunt told me the morning she went out she still see tat it's ok! and i tink it is, cos the prev day when i drove to cwp tat time also is ok!
IDIOT DRIVER rite? i'm gonna curse and swear at whoever he/she is! Never admit mistakes right? make sure that driver go dumb!
SUPER PO man! Ya, esp when u r not the one who caused the scratch!!!
and i got one screw for the tyres missing! sigh..i thot my estate here has been quite a good and safe place! what a disappointment now! Initially still tinking I can finally take a breather once my exam is over(which is today!) but got such things to settle! qi si wo le!
why are all the bad things happening to me lately??? Now i SUPER SIM-TIA!! :(

That's right! some idiot banged my car!! and that's how I got my first kiss without me knowing! sadz!

my lunar birthday at cwp

2005-11-19T07:30:00.000+08:00

after my cryings and unfulfilled sleep, i appeared so listless..they all thot i couldn't wake up...and i'm being assigned with the annonying oldbird! luckily not enuff hands and they made her to do other things, then she came over and asked, eh, u can do alone or not? shd be ok hor? hypo!!

i spend my lunar birthday in CWP with the girls. First time spending birthday in such an unusual place!
hmm...but i tink it's well spent, otherwise i will prolly hu si luan xiang from yesterday! the girls are all so well-behaved and they dun look like they shd be in here! most of them were cos of drugs, fighting as the lady officer mentioned. some are so eager to learn, some listless...some although quiet but they learn v fast! and again, i was only on duty for 1 day. this time i was a facilitator myself and it was a better experience than last week as instructor! i have more time for the girls and feel more closer to them...there's a scenario part in the first-aid programmed and i was to become unconscious and the girls were to use the groundsheet as stretcher to carry me around! wow, they are quite small size leh and i'm
quite heavy! to tink they carried me! i'm so touched! my group was the Acheiver group with only 4 girls!
when i told them that i wont be coming the next day, they were so sad! i'm sad too...but at the same time, as much as i wanted to come back for them, i had no other choice but to leave them since arrangements have been made. i have my family problems, my exams to settle which i tink i shd be responsible also.
I tink i like to facilitate more than instruct!

my birthday

2005-11-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

today is my birthday! I'm 27 liao! Had several birthday wishes this year and I'm not going to write them here...cos each year anyway, it did not come true, well...one of it did came true.

It is also today that marks the happiest and saddest moments in my life!
Let's talk about happiest!
I had received a FABULOUS SURPRISE from my ex-cols! they are really great aren't they! I LOVE U GUYS! u know, i was out at a warehouse visit and it was 10am when i left office, and i came back at 12nn and TA-DA the gift is there, right on my desk! I almost burst into tears! cos I NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER thot anyone will do that to me! and it was a bouquet of ferrero rocher with a little sweet bear on it! It was the GREATEST surprise i had! and I never told my address to my frens...how would they know! they are really almighty! as i called my guruji, BHAGWAN....which means GOD! and all of them hid this secret so well! Thanks for this, cos I am really HONOURED and feel IMPORTANT for once so long...Muz definitely mention their name here! they are none other than 3inn0c, wallaby, gss and guruji! *muaks*

then i also received many many smses from frens...some whom u never ever think that they'll sms u...ppl whom u tink u made little difference in their lives actually sms-ed u! but those whom u tink u did made some difference in their lives did not! what an irony! Yes, and HL, ah chun and t2 all did not..ok, hl did sms me the next day.
I guess each time for these SMs, i alwiz do these pressie thing for them, nicely, handmade...but now, i realise...this aint impt to them at all...i guess money is more impt...*heart broken*
But i think in life, you gain some, you also lose some ...and here, though i lost some of my confidence in some pple, but i did gain back some and these is what made my life sweet after all!

and it's the day when it's supposed to be for my family. For this day, my family who dun celebrate my angmoh birthday, it became quite meaningless for me to stay at home rite? but hearing wat 3inn0c said, i shd be good and go back and spend the time with my family lor:)

I went to do a lil shopping with little foot in the end, but i din buy any things...then since it's still quite early, thinking tat giordano got some bday discount, i asked my dad if he wanna go imm and have a look..he and mum came to imm to look for me...then came the breaking news :'( that my parents quarelled! It was devastating for me:'( all becos of a not-sure if it's misunderstanding or what..but my dad ended up drinking when he's not supposed to, cos he got heart disease. yes and he drank the guiness again! i told him to join me for dinner, cos it's my birthday...he just took out his book and began writing, then said "ya, happy birthday" and then start to drink! this really saddens me! i broke into tears...crying softly in the room! But he did something really unforgiving to my mum! if u know jay's song, u will know what he did...the [dad, i came back already] song! now i hate him! i really despise him! all cos he cannot stand being wronged by my mum and that means he can do that to her?! this is the first time i felt my heart aches! and pierced open...now i know what is this kind of feeling!
they even want to file for the letter D! i really dunno what to do:(
I'm so tired of all these...facing all the exams stress, the volunteer projects, the bills, evthg...so many things for me to face...and i have now, no courage...i decided to concentrate on one thing at a time...finish my exam first...which is what i did...

yes, dirty linen shouldnt be washed in public, but i really need a place to vent my frustrations!

RTC programme

2005-11-12T12:20:00.000+08:00

I had my oral exam today and i was "spared" for the 1st day for RTC programme, which is today, cos CY was in time to come back to help us!

my oral was ok, this time is better. at least i know what the sensei is asking me, just tat my answer is not so sure...i tink my conversation is really bad!! :(

The RTC programme is a success. Feel that I had done some kind deeds again, helping these inmates. But a couple of the ppl did pissed me off! 1 is an oldbird organiser! she hor! i have a feeling she despised me or dun tink i'll know all those rope work stuff and cant handle things myself one leh! EACH AND EVERY TIME! when we were assigned groups, she'll hear my group, only ME in charge, she'll somehow have another person with me one! i feel de-valued! then another person is a facilitator! i'm was in the canteen, giving instructions for the game. then i tink i did not speak loud enuff, partly cos the room was too noisy, she so rudely said "EH, CAN U SPEAK LOUDER OR NOT, and can u stand in the middle? i just cant hear u! i dun tink the others can!" WTH...then to be a lil professional, i have to BITE my teeth and continue lor...stood in the middle and try to speak my loudest competing with shouting from the other boys! Not even a word of appreciation!
but these are the minor things lah, though i do bear the grudge, but must tink of the big picture! i.e. to help the boys.

This time round, i try not to get myself so involved, emotionally...anyway, my role as instructor din really give me much chance to get involved emotionally...so in a way, it's a blessings in disguise?
seeing them feel sad when we are leaving does make me feel we did made a good impact on them..and that their enthusiasm in asking and learning...makes me feel, being outside is so much fortunate...we can do whatever things we like and not restricted to the 4 walls.

Be contented..

my schedule till end of nov

2005-11-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

ok, here's my schedule till end of nov! which is a SUPER duPer busy mth for me:(

12/13 nov - RTC project
12/14/16/21 nov - nihongo exams!! :( no time to study leh! cos i got those projects on:( so postponed all my tennis, guitar, u guys' outing till dec :(((
19/20 nov - CWP project
26 nov - xr wedding
27 nov - papajoe's wedding (will be flying to indon for this)

after 21st nov, i'll be freed!! (from my stressful exams!) i dunno if i'll fail this time :( cos all my term's exam is just passed now:| die liao...amithabha...pray tat i'll pass!

finally 3rd dec...i can meet u guys liao!! but we meet in aftn k, cos i'm selected as route marshal for the once-a-year marathon event...which is in the morning :)

Nov 8th!

2005-11-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's 3inn0c's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 3innOc!!!
HEIPI BURPDAY TO YOU!!!
i tink u will like to hear birthday songs! but i'm having this written version here!! :)

YOU DA LE YI SUI LE! hmm...any special birthday wish this year?

Come to think of it, last year, was the first time we "celebrated" ur bday for you! and somemore it's the time u just got the key to open the doors to adulthood! tat time, you reminded everyone of your birthday..even xm gave u a bday gift...haha...that time really felt...hmm...u r really really like a child! cos i am wondering if i did tat, my frens will tink i'm so thick-skinned and prolly just ignore me!! :( no worries, i dun mean u tick-skinned;b haha...it's just ur personality which makes u really unforgivingly adorable! ack it k! and btw, it's good to be thick-skinned occasionally!
but i tink sometimes, really need to remind others of ur bday rite? hmm...but as i said, u r so ren jian ren ai, so i guess we wont forget ur bday one :)

Hope that u will have all the wishes that you have wished come true!! :)

心中的秘密 : Tous Les Secrets

2005-11-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

missellaneeous thots...hmm...ytd was telling 3innoc...sth tat my guruji told me, tat i had alwiz wanted to pen it down, and i keep forgetting! :( now my bro's aint at home...muz hurry and write all i can! :(
that's "only when you leave, you'll know who really cares for you...it's the time when you get the most concern, the most that you never ever noticed when you are living normally...many things flushed back in my mind...the time when i left CL...it was traumatising...cos that time, i thot i'm not so important, so i did not tell a lot of pple tat i was leaving, and some, even only 1 day b4 got to know tat i left...and was so angry! cos i was not treating him/her as a fren to tell her..

here, in cc, though many pple were alwiz not smiling with u, not really have much dealings with u...but when u r leaving...the mood was quite lousy...or perhaps it's only those few pple tat made me felt tat way and it's quite a small coy anyway...

so i tink really muz treasure the pple ard me...and not take "EMOTIONS" for granted...i guess i shd not feel i'm not important (at all), i guess i was made to feel tat way too many times...i may not be important...but i guess i'm still important to some pple...so...am i important to you? shd i ask such "stoopid" qns?
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
today, i got an email from someone whom i never thot would write such mushy words...he said he misses me...haha...maybe he's alwiz so re-qing just tat i dunno...but i guess it did made me happy tat i'm actually quite important to him :b
ok, dun worry...he's not those bf-to-be etc...just frens...
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
today striked a conversation with a fren and we felt tat guys..unless he wants to be close to u, he'll tell u his more private things...i guess i'd never met a guy who wants to share his innermost thots with me...i guess tat's y...i dun really like to talk to guys? cos i dun like to talk so much craps...well..are guys crappy?

i dun deny i dun talk craps...but it cant be tat the conversation is forever rite? or perhaps the guys i know are all crappy!! haha...except a few...ok, i shd use my words more appropriately...it's not crappy...but it's more surface-talk...perhaps men cant put themselves down and if they tell u too much abt them, they feel threatened? am i tat scary? *gila*!
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
recently...been reading some of my pals blogs...found a bit the farther from pple whom i only read what's happening to them...are we drifting apart?
i realise this...even though i know what's happening to you, it's really not enuff to keep a friendship going...we still need to get out n TALK to each other? or see each other? i dunno...but i felt very much tat way when i read on and found tat i'm not in any of your topics at all...am feeling more and more distant...how?

just remembered a saying from a fren...she told me,
friends are like stars...you never see them, but they are alwiz there... how true it is...but how come i'm feeling this way with this fren who used to be so close to me, then now, cos she's so busy with her own things and me reading her blog, suddenly felt the distance? is it me feeling that way only or is it vice versa? or is it cos i alwiz have a lot of OTHER activities that it's assumed tat i'm busy and can take care of myself, can alwiz have many companions ard?

I really dun like ASSUMPTIONS! it's killing me!

MayDay and Jay's new album

2005-11-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

ooh...how i love MayDay's new album... and
the 恋爱ing tune is so jovial!

陪你熬夜聊天到爆肝也没关系
陪你逛街逛成扁平足也没关系
超感谢你让我重生整个o r z
让我重新认识 love
(l o v e! l o v e!)
恋爱i n g happy i n g
心情就像是坐上一台喷射机
恋爱i n g 改变 i n g
改变了黄昏黎明
有你都心跳到不行
你是空气但是好闻胜过了空气
你是阳光但是却能照进半夜里
水能载舟也能煮粥喂饱了生命
你就是维他命l o v e
未来某年某月某日某时某分某秒
某人某地某种永远的心情
不会忘记此刻l o v e
l o v e! l o v e!
黄昏黎明整个到恋爱i n g

and Contented...
知足
演唱:五月天
五月天-知足
怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够
如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有
当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛
那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞
才发现笑着哭最痛wo…
如果你快乐再不是为我
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

and not to forget...jielun's new album - November Chopin...omg...i'm fainting...
such a shi qing hua yi's name...十一月的萧邦...and my birthday is on nov! haha...pity on the radio i had only heard the hair like snow song...

发如雪词:方文山曲:周杰伦

狼牙月伊人憔悴
我举杯饮尽了风雪
是谁打翻前世柜惹尘埃是非
缘字诀几番轮回你锁眉哭红颜唤不回
纵然青史已经成灰我爱不灭
繁华如三千东流水我只取一瓢爱了解只恋你化身的蝶
你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑

你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月
哦狼牙月伊人憔悴
我举杯饮尽了风雪
是谁打翻前世柜惹尘埃是非
缘字诀几番轮回你锁眉哭红颜唤不回
纵然青史已经成灰我爱不灭
繁华如三千东流水我只取一瓢爱了解只恋你化身的蝶
你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑
你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑
啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦
铜镜映无邪扎马尾你若撒野今生我把酒奉陪
啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦
铜镜映无邪扎马尾你若撒野今生我把酒奉陪

hurry...let's go and get his album!! :)

Shopping at G2K

2005-11-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to You!
may u find ur prince charming soon...
which u might already did :)

today, went xia ping at wisma's g2k :D cos of my dearest 3innoc's 50% voucher, i managed to get a jacket, a shirt and a woolen blouse all at 1/2 price...thankie! envious of moi? :)

it was a really tiring nite! din notice the time and we were the last customers liao! 1030pm!! OMG! feel so paiseh! frankly i tink it's a pretty good buy lah, though i muz admit, previous year the clothes i bot, i tink i din wash it well...the button for the same pants we bot, came off after my 3rd or 4th time wearing!:( so initially was tinking whether to buy the white woollen sequined turtle neck! cos i'm afraid it wld..cos i really like tat too just tat i'm afraid it's too hot when i wear and the layer came off then not nice liao!! and the turqoise spagetti...i tink my lump of fat is too huge to contain in tat little piece of clothe...so i din buy lor:( otherwise cld hv got it with u too!! :D then each time we'll get the same piece of clothes hor!! :)

all in all, it was really nice...cos i got to eat with u and gss, then can talk and talk and talk...and shop and shop and shop...hope to have more of such "gatherings" but not shopping all the time lah..haha...otherwise later pocket will be burnt wor!! :|

BBQ at East Coast

2005-11-01T18:00:00.000+08:00

Went on to a potluck bbq to celebrate hj's birthday! she mentioned tat she'll be bringing a fren whom she last min asked and if it's ok...just a pu tong peng you ;b
hmm...i was preparing fruits mah...and my hands are quite wet and sweety while i answer the call from her...then i asked...hmm...it's ok for me, but dun have to explain so much mah...haha...just kidding her lah;b

reached there, i rem i brot a bottle of lee kum kee's char siew sauce and left it in the car...so as we walked to the bbq pit, i din find it in the bag i was carrying! then i walked back to car again and take! the walk took 30mins to & fro!! then i din find it still! just dunno where it landed! but i'm SUPER DUPER sure i put it in the car as when i left the house, my mum handed to me, cos i forgot to bring out of the house! i guess it's still somewhere in my car now!! :|

ok, abt tat guy...he looks pretty si wen...quiet...but he smokes...ok, i tink i quite like the way he smiled...erm...he seems to enjoy suan-ing me, maybe cos i'm doing stoopid things like fanning the pit from the bottom, then he said, erm, can u fan from top, cos otherwise the ash will get on the chicken wings! then ok lor...fan from top lor! then xr did tat also, and she fanned so hard but she wasn't said! UNFAIR! okok...maybe cos xr's bf is ard, he dun wanna be bashed bah!! *sulks*
then the birthday bbq ended with a tiramisu sweet secrets cake and baileys...the cake was delicious, pity it was a bit melted liao...and i'm pretty full!! :( so only managed 1 small piece!! then we left the 2 of them to go back tog...hehehe...hopefully u'll get the prince CHARM-ing this year :)

oh ya, tmr's hj's actual birthday :)
next on will be 3innoc
then moi!! heh :)
so as u can guess...we are all The sc0rPiOns :>
reminds me of the tat my fren sang in thailand!

Birthday lunch celebration

2005-10-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

it's a lil like talking pt tat we have in CL, where ev mth, we got catered food. Here, if there's someone's birthday in each month, we'll get a lunch buffet at the last fri of the mth...luckily no sabotages for the birthday person! cos next mth's my turn mah...PHEW! hee
oh yes, then we ate at a mtg room...more get-to-know other colleagues...i quite like these sessions...

ah, looking forward to next wk! cos got 2 holidays and i can meet 3inn0c soon!! :D

Bowling at Mt Faber SAFRA

2005-10-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

Dinno that my colleagues are going for the practice...in the end, i tagged along so last min! then i was WEARING A SKIRT! din bring socks lor...gotta buy one, waste money again!
hmm...in a way, i'm glad that i went, cos i got to know some of the colleagues from other dept...
well...my scores were lousy! we had 3 games and i din strike at all! gosh!
then me really a direction id10t:( cos i walked to the bus stop in the wrong direction and in the end, i almost walked half the bt merah...haha...not so much lah, but i walked like 15 mins b4 i see a familiar bus to go home:(
ok...tat's some exercise...hah

Lunch treat at Kuishinbo

2005-10-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

Hee...though i was only 2 wks old here...i got a luncheon treat from 2 colleagues sharing the costs of 40-60! they were recently promoted and giving a treat to some pple in the dept! and feeling a bit shou zhi wu kui...i told the colleague giving treat that, but they were pretty happy to give me the treat...haha...so i accepted it and it was a good jap lunch buffet! got paper steamboat also ne! quite a wide spread of the food! there's chawanmushi also..softshell crabs, raws, teppanyaki, desserts,ice-creams...YUM!

costs abt $20.00 per pax! maybe we can go tog one day?:)

Overall rating : ****
Efficiency of waitress : ***
FOod : ****
Ambience : ***
Location : ***
Credit Card discount : nil

I declare Rest Day!

2005-10-24T12:00:00.000+08:00

have been so tired, after all the playing and meeting frens...i end up sleeping at home the whole day! something i had not done for a long time! it was a good rest day!

hmm...but my chores ended up piling!
i have to pack all my stuff leh...house is in a mess man!! :|

ktv with cc peeps

2005-10-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

what a wonderful time! my 1st outing with them after i left cc..though it's only like a week, but it seems ages since we met again!
there were 3inn0c, wallaby, jo&na, and auntie por. 3 of us, wallaby, auntie por and myself, haven't had lunch, and luckily we managed to smuggle our fav Old Chang Kee in! YUM! delicious!
the singings were full of fun and lafters! erm...now that i hear auntie por's singing...hmm...really GAO NAN DU! haha...and now i know why 3innoc cannot duet with him! haha...in the end, i also end up laffing when he sings! can't help it!

actuallie, initially i dun really like to go ktvs...cos prev times, i went with other frens, and instead of really able to catch up, we end up singing, cos i find it pretty rude when someone is singing, then i keep on toking...so we did not talk, then the catch up gotta be done like after the ktv itself! so it's really bad to use ktv as a catchup session to me lor!
however, tis time round, it's different leh! i guess we dun mind the other person tok while i sing or whatever, cos i was able to catch up with these nice chaps and yet can enjoy the singing!! :)
thanks pals, i enjoyed the singing so much for the first time! i guess the companions matters in whatever u do, eh? :DC

pity i got tennis class, otherwise would have joined for dinner!! :) and luckily i got tennis class, cos i heard the dinner's food wasn't nice at all! :D
blessings in disguise? :b

an interesting gift

2005-10-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

today, someone sent a packet of beehoon to m-san as gift! beehoon is also given to other pple...m-san looked bewildered and asked pearling...erm...can this be eaten? with frowns in his face, then pearling was laffing...and he showed me...do u know wat's this? someone gave me a packet of beehoon!! *_* haha...what omoshiroi gift they have!!

i tink i have problem understanding m-san's english! cos today, our mail server down again, and it gave "server not responding" i heard some sabah no response? i was tinking...wow, even atoyot got biz in sabah? until the person in charge dashed out to fix the server, then i realised he's talking abt this error msg!! *_*

my 3rd day

2005-10-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

decided to wear the white necklace today! looks pretty well:) thanks for this gift *muaks*

hmm..beginnig to dread ms tan's face...cos of that kind of complacent look! :(

sigh...my feets are blistered:(

new colleagues

2005-10-18T21:32:00.000+08:00

ok, abt my colleagues!
maybe i'll intro some of them here?
character #1 :
my jap boss, i shall call him m-san...
always stern looking, and has a bell on his hp...walks pretty loudly...i cant quite make out his english sometimes! so far, i only talked to him when i need him to sign form...he alwiz takes a while, cos he asked many qns b4 he signs! reawlly cautious man ne!
character #2 :
my manager...he looks like a beaver! haha...his face lah...i'll call him Ibeaver bah...he seems to alwiz sway with m-san's words...i was in a few mtgs with him b4..then someone cant answer m-san, his eyes will go so BIG! 0m0 but tink he does know some mgmt thingy lah, from wat he says sometimes...dunno if he's empty shell yet! he is a "CHICKEN"
character #3 :
then comes my Asst manager..who's handing her things to me...wonder then wat will she do when she handover all to me! ok, i shall call her ms tan! first look at her...really tink she's not tat kindda married person! mind u, she has 2 kids already!! hmmm...her face alwiz ICI-ed! and it's white! but she got v long eye-lashes! omg, really long...except for her makeup to be so white, i tink she's ok lah...but a bit stressed with her leh...she brot me ard users and say, next time, look for her, anything i'll pass to u..like it's a HUGE ball for me to catch leh! :|
whenever she says tat...i am so :( cos of the thots tat suddenly a huge bomb just throw at u! :(((( she is also "CHICKEN"
character #4 :
then another AM (just promoted!) call him aleck bah...heard he alwiz has first hand news abt m-san's or whatever boss's whereabouts...tat's cos he check their cal 1st thing in the morning ev day lor...ok, he is someone who dun finish his food...just like 3inn0c...hah...so u have found ur match? but i tink still u win lah;b
he will talk abt anything, not afraid of anything but he looks like he is afraid...
i dunno abt him, i only know he say the CHICKENS will ke him...but i din ask how old is he...prolly older than me bah...married got children? already??
character #5:
this guy looks a bit like my cousin-in-law! hah...ok, can call him tangmusi...he is a quiet man, but at least he will talk to u if u ask him qn...then he and aleck are good frens...alwiz stick out tog...also not sure what animal is he...but shd also be older than me bah...also married got children already..cos tat day they were saying he play with his kids till he shan dao yao! hahaha...
character #6:
she is regina's fren...hmm...quite outspoken...and alwiz so busy running ard...so i din really get to talk to her yet...call her pearling bah...
ok, these are the ppl i most associate with lor...the rest, infra guys...dun seem so frenly...and oh yes, the guys there muz wear ties one...

my First Impression!

2005-10-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

most of the things they print, esp schedules, status tracking list...are all in A3! i feel tat it's a waste of paper..they never recycle the papers! never use both sides! and the papers they used is from CANON! high cost? hmm...maybe they can afford it bah! evthg looks so new..ok, i muz admit, they she de spend on these...even my first day, i got the goodie bag of stationaries...inside got those plastic in/out trays...then got punch holder, pilot mechanical pencil, lead, a bunch of other pilot pens...all brand new...then brand new calculator, brand new scotch tape...those black clips...and notebook, then got namecard holder, those like foto album kind...and scissors...those liquid paper, tape one where dm alwiz use! ya, tat time in cc i used the liquid one mah..then i rem ginny said dm only use this tape kind! the rest of us use liquid kind...
evthg...i was WAH...cc where got like tat? ok lah, cl got a bit...it's packed already for us...but here, they give u a "Goodie" bag lor...and u pack urself...so i tink they really she de!

i tink it's quite a "culture shock" cos my seat do not have cubicles anymore! :( but luckily my back faces the window...so got a bit of privacy except the person on my right, who is my AM, likes to peep at what i'm doing~ erm...reading! so i cant really email a lot...well...anyway, the lotus notes is alwiz down! and they r using an older version...ah, the desk also pretty small..just a desk not like in cc i got a big space lor...there i tink most of the pple use notebook one...yes, i'm using notebook...then they got lock to lock up the notebook on ur desk so u no need to carry home...

though they r v focused on the work, ito software...they r not so up-to-date! like i'm using win2k and office 2000 only! a step behind? and lotus notes is r5 or r6 i tink! ok, we r upgrading soon! haha...

they have so many meetings! i can't believe it...my lotus notes is now filled with invitations! now i know y my colleagues are never so much at their desk...i just hope my bosses have more mtgs! haha...

During lunch, my colleagues will alwiz have a cup of coffee after their meals...seems like it's a norm? but not for me...for one thing...i wanna save money...and food there are at least $3! so i try to find $3 food lor..no more no.22's fuzhou fishball at $2.50...and i dun buy drinks...so tat can save some money! haiz...how much can i save like tat?! but better than nuttin? well..i'm the most junior there! cos there's so many project leads! and feel a bit like cheated? cos i thot i'll b quite senior...but in fact, there's a lot of AM(asst mgr) and senior execs...while i'm just exec! and i dunno how many levels i have b4 i go on to senior! but also good lah, just go in, then just exec, they wont really expect more from u rite? hope to get a promo b4 i leave man! i guess i just gotta work hard for it liao...

abt work...i asked myself...am i just a middle man? between users and vendors? it seems so and the AM who's handing over the systems to me...she seemed to make it sound so simple...and they schedule is each wk 1 reqm part...i wonder if can really be on time? cos normally schedules are missed in my working life so far! but japs are pple who wants punctuality rite? i dunno what is their tolerance level!! :| i tink i'm putting such pressures on myself...to be fast in my work...to be PROACTIVE! but yet, i cant seem to get the info into my head...not like last time, i can easily understand cc's requirements or at least wat sf told me then...without the need to write down on paper...now i cant seem to do tat...why? is it cos i'm older already? or things are just too overwhelming?
suddenly, dunnid to do all the technical stuff...feels so strange..i'm so afraid that i'll forget them:( then all i learnt, from myself, and others will be a waste?! :(
right now, i'm doing sth like users' requirements, going thru with users, vendors on the enhancements etc...quite different and i'm still adapting...they r v systematic...and really prioritised on the things they do...not like my prev bosses...wants evthg to be done! all at once! i guess that's y jap are more successful ppl ito work?